raised in country blues

Verse 1 When I was a kid I remember shit was bad But I don’t recall ever feeling sad Just plates in the kitchen and a slammed back door Mama cryin’ low on the while sweeping the floor They said we’re movin’, finding greener grass Loaded up dreams as hurricanes happened But you can’t outrun what you won’t confess Two people coexisting in a holy mess Smile for the neighbors, hold hands in town Fight like hell when the sun goes down Don’t you tell the truth, don’t you dare be loud Family secrets make the church folks proud Pre-Chorus Daddy found God when I’d already burned chaos is a language& you bet it I learned Call me crazy, call me lazy Call me what God told you to, baby Chorus I was the seed that needed rain Unfortunately I was the one they blamed Before you judge a junkie Before you shake your head Just imagine it’s your daughter Sleeping hungry instead Before you call it weakness Or say she chose that life Ask who put her on the street In the middle of the night Love in denial of what chaos can Stain in the mind Verse 2 Fifteen, clothes in the yard Ripping down my art hit harder than God I ran barefoot down that street Swore I’d never beg at their feet Five dollars from daddy’s side To the streets he screamed - goodbye Brothers watched from the first row I hope they know I loved ‘em though Couch to couch and eighty pounds Showered where the dealers hung around Stomach growlin’, nose went numb Hell felt closer than anyone (Slide Guitar Break) mmmm mmmmm Verse 3 Grandma fed me beans and grace Held my shaking, hollow face Said “baby girl, you’re worth more than youre mistakes” Love ain’t control and it ain’t a fist Its loving someone- no matter how helpless Three months clean and almost whole Thought I’d outrun that family soul But daddy called, said come back home My momma is dying, we can’t be alone Beer in the fridge, coke in a line “Don’t worry honey, its okay this time” Funny how the same damn sin Got me crucified, but not him Chorus (Grittier) I was the seed that needed rain Instead I drowned in family shame Before you judge a junkie Before you draw that line Just imagine it’s your son Tryin’ not to die Before you say “she chose it” Like it’s black and white Ask who taught her love was fear And fear was love disguised Bridge (Half-Spoken, Raw) They say I’m accountable But I’m unsalvageable They say they love me But it’s tactical Give me a dream Dangle it – make me say please Call it help Call it greed And I still — Still want ‘em proud Even when they’re high Even when they’re loud Final Verse All my friends are droppin’ fast Pain don’t care about your past If it ain’t the needle it’s the rope Or pills dressed up as hope I made it out but I ain’t clean From the ghosts of what I’ve seen And every time my phone lights up I pray it ain’t another one That fucks me up Final Chorus (Stripped Down) So before you judge a junkie Before you roll your eyes Remember somebody loved them Before they learned to hide I was the seed that needed rain I was a kid in hurricane I was never born to lose Just raised In country blues.