A fence a white door , 2 neighbors, one with a cat , I live alone with a small dog and som mess , it's ok , I guess , Tired of thinking to much , sometimes I wish I could just sleep , normal ,, and the sound in my head would stop , and the pain to go away , but I guess that's to much , When I look in the mirror ,I kind of , scratch my head , not that I need a shave , because I do , but who are you , where did Johnny go , getting older , from black to grey , they say that's a charm , okay,I used to think so to , but no , I talk to my self , even think up situations, and scream at my self , just too get things out , frustration of mistakes and the past , the emptiness of to day ,no real dreams for the tomorrow,if it is one for me , I don't know what's wrong with me , I know I can be funny , but I seem to be in dark place way to often , behind the smile and white lies , I kind of feel a bit better now , I talk to this lady , in the nights , I have done it for a while , we kind of have our own thing , at least it's a good beginning , It's feel weird , to have no one ,to check on ,except my baby girl ,and her , but I kind of Made it this way , it used to be different , I had to many , now I understand , how it feels to be alone ,I kind of got used to it , no stress , no expectation, no sensation , but I kind of building a foundation, with her , it kind of sweet , and a bit weird , but I don't care , I need her , She makes me , turn my self out of the lonelyness, that I have grown to think is ok , even thow I know , it's not , but it's easy , kind of comfy , but not really , I kind of wonder if she's gonna back out if I get to close , that's why I never ask anymore , I don't wanna scare her away , I kind of need her , to breath easy , I feel lighter every day in my mind , I think it's becuse she cares abut me and laughs, at my weird crazy shit , I am kind of surprised, she's my best friend I think , i tell her things nobody knows , I trust her Moore and Moore , it's easy ,
