Gray Skies (rewrite of @Darknesscome)

[Verse 1] I wake up to a gray sky, Shudder shake lay there awake My dreams still haunting me Lay there motionlessly The breeze brings quiet fears, bearer of a terror’s gorge rising up Whispering secrets I don't wanna hear Truths i do not want to touch And the sky feels endlessly empty Here where gravity has me crushed Like a story, before me slowly streaming… [spoken questioningly] I Cant tell Am I Still dreaming? [Verse 2] I left yesterday, in a brutal haze of blasé Carefully, as if to not to find the focus Of this all pervasive omnipresent grey The sun tried to warm me, it's rays cast in vain Seems it simply lacked the strength Cast upon my vistas of pain Every thing and one shaky, Trembles like leaves So disorients That i clutch my chest in labored breaths Difficulty trying to breathe (In my dead mothers voice someone speaks) [spoken female voice of concern] [music stops for a monent to bring focus on lyrics] Oh dear me honey Are you okay? [music returns where it left off] caught suspended, am i going insane? [Monologue] Each calm hidden storms An echo of thunder..... Lingers... I show wonder, I experience horror I lay me down Before it drags me under. [Verse 3] The soft light pierces, i reassured resolve But my inadequacy returns Flitter like a bird, obvious like a crow caw Like lock jaw like the yawn of a maw Whose precipice i stagger on Dreams are never come yet They capture me like some bastardly trap pulling me, taught is the line Sharp is the shank I run in an illusion of freedom YANK Its a grown grey game whose aim Is to leave tired, lamed without hope And only then will i be leisurely Pulled up into the boat [Verse 4] The gray morning, closes as I wake Under a desolate, afternoon Exaggerating everything A poorly colored cartoon Time vexes stretches unexpected Wretched it accelerates every moments seems precious yet its gone too soon Lost to a rhythm that turns every hesitation Into a betrayal worse than sin A crime I become a glutton If my own ticking time Yet i dont know what im suppose to be Know, do, go, accrue What to find, lose, let go, or improve You seem content so tell me your secret Whisper it I will keep it warm and tucked away In a cloth of color Hidden from the grey [Chorus] See any lighter land, where joy blooms? Caressing my unbroken hand Pen to page resumes Sad songs I write easily I stew best when doomed When hope slowly denies me The intricate fragility that fits the mold Like black precedes grey And decay follow souls Night lingered too long, Mercurial song sung Till my lips bled but never long enough And a quiet form, gently promising Never reveals, what lays ahead. [Bridge] I stay in dawn’s illusion Cursing the grey constance To show me one instance Of a truth that resist it Unmauled My hidden fears softly called In the twilight. In the comfort, Of dreams trembling fragile life Joy and sorrow together bound unified Against a grey and beaten Foreshadowed brooding sky... [Repeat Chorus]