## Copyright © Riceau Lyrics by @Riceau, audio creative direction by collaborating with my AI team, audio by Suno Yes this is autobiographical. No this is not a cry for help. Please don't see it that way. ## [Verse 1] It happened to me again today Woke up and all I see is grey Want to remain in bed and sleep But I get out and take a leap I grab my mask and I put it on Nobody will see my mind has gone To shit [Pre-Chorus] Why does this always happen Everything was going so well It's like it looks for a gap in My armor, to pierce through the shell [Chorus] My armor is slowly failing Seems like there is no bailing As this feeling tries to spread That only darkness lies ahead My shield is slowly breaking Of that there's no mistaking [Verse 2] It's not like this is new to me But I thought that I broke free I figured it was just a phase That once healed, I'd be good Was the happiness just a graze? Or am I feeling like I should? Like shit [Pre-Chorus] Is this all that I deserve Or is my future brighter than this Can I get ahead of the curve Or is that an option I can dismiss? [Chorus] My armor is slowly failing Seems like there is no bailing As this feeling tries to spread That only darkness lies ahead My shield is slowly breaking Of that there's no mistaking [Verse 3] I've ridden this ride before And I don't want this anymore I will not let it win this time I will get back in my prime All this work cannot be in vain So here's a message to my brain: Fuck you [Breakdown (lol)] I won't let you break me down (again) I won't let you take control (again) Don't treat me like a fucking clown (again) Won't let you take me down this hole (again) [Bridge] I'm aware of this affliction's cyclic nature And I don't care about the nomenclature The feeling is what rears it's ugly head This fucking feeling of constant dread But what matters most is that I cannot let it win This feeling I can't ghost, I should just begin By admitting that there's a challenge to overcome And outwitting it so that I will not succumb So fuck you brain, trying this shit once more But your internal pain, I will beat for sure [Final chorus] Every time my armor gets a dent It'll just be a reminder in the end This feeling, it tries to spread But I will work on getting ahead While my shield looks like it's breaking It will hold, of that there's no mistaking