Half my life I wore your name like a wedding ring Built my days Around your breathing Would've died for you I would’ve stood In front of anything that came You held my secrets Like you’d never say my name in vain You walked away Like the house wasn’t burning Like the years weren’t turning Inside my chest How am I ever to love again When every touch feels borrowed How am I ever to trust again When yesterday haunts tomorrow I gave you the lock You swallowed the key Now every open door Looks like a trick to me How am I ever to love again How am I ever to trust again I replay Every laugh in the kitchen light Every lie That must’ve hid in those quiet nights Did you know When you said it was always me That you’d leave And take the soil from underneath my feet Now every smile Feels like a loaded question Every promise Sounds like a practiced line How am I ever to love again When every touch feels borrowed How am I ever to trust again When yesterday haunts tomorrow I gave you the lock You swallowed the key Now every open door Looks like a trick to me How am I ever to love again How am I ever to trust again Maybe one day I’ll hold a hand that doesn’t shake Maybe one day A gentle voice won’t sound so fake But tonight I’m just a shadow Of the one you used to know Trying to believe I’m more than what you chose to let go How am I ever to love again When every touch feels borrowed How am I ever to trust again When yesterday haunts tomorrow I gave you the lock You swallowed the key But somewhere in the dark There’s still a heart in me How am I ever to love again (teach me how to trust again)
