The Shape I Wake Up In

# THE SHAPE I WAKE UP IN [VERSE 1 — deep clean vocal, bass-forward groove] Morning finds me differently, though I went to bed the same. Something shifts while I'm asleep and leaves me holding all the blame. Mirror says I made it through. My hands say, "Try again." Every night I lose myself. Every morning— I wake up in him. [RIFF — low, crooked djent groove; drums deliberately lag behind guitar] [CHORUS — melodic clean vocal, restrained but memorable] **This is the shape I wake up in, a little less outside, more within. I wear it well. I always did. Nobody asks what lives beneath it.** Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up changed. Maybe tomorrow— I'll feel my name. [INSTRUMENTAL — bass takes melody; guitar becomes increasingly dissonant] [VERSE 2 — vocal becomes more rhythmic] I know exactly how to smile. I know exactly when to speak. I've gotten good at looking strong when something underneath is weak. Don't call it pain. That isn't right. Pain still knows where it begins. This thing doesn't have a fucking name. **It just knows where I live.** [BREAKDOWN — heavy, but deliberately NOT maximum RDS] WHERE. I. LIVE. [Half-time] Whatever you are— **GET THE FUCK OUT.** [Silence] ...or don't. [FINAL CHORUS — larger clean vocal, guitars remain crushing] **This is the shape I wake up in, a little less outside, more within. I wear it well. I always did. Nobody asks what lives beneath it.** Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up changed. Maybe tomorrow— **I'll feel my name.** [Instrumental resolution — unresolved chord]