I don’t want to die, I just want this to stop.

metal, heavy metal, intense, progressive, powerful, aggressive, male vocals, deep, violin, sad

Verse 1
Woke up with my teeth clenched tight
Like I fought myself all night
Ceiling fan counting every sin
I didn’t commit—but still live in

I drag my name through another day
Wear my face like a cheap disguise
If anyone asks if I’m okay
I learned how to lie with my eyes

Pre-Chorus
I’m not suicidal—just tired of pain
Tired of praying for something to change
Tired of hearing “you’ll be alright”
From people who sleep fine every night

Chorus
I don’t wanna die
I just want this to stop
The noise in my head
The rot in my thoughts
I’m holding my breath
Like that’ll make it pass
Still here, still stuck
Still cutting time in half

I don’t wanna die
But I don’t wanna be
Trapped in a body
That’s killing me

Verse 2
I keep my demons well-dressed
So they don’t scare the guests
I make dark jokes, make it cute
If they knew, they’d run too

Every memory’s got teeth
Every silence screams at me
I replay shit I can’t undo
Like it’s evidence I’m proof

Pre-Chorus
They say “reach out,” but I don’t know how
Without being a burden now
I’ve learned how to disappear
While still standing right here

Chorus
I don’t wanna die
I just want this to stop
The echo of failure
I can’t shut off
I’m counting the cracks
In my bedroom walls
Each one whispering
“Just let go… fall”

I don’t wanna die
But I don’t wanna stay
Another night bargaining
With my brain

Bridge (raw, almost spoken)
Some days I scare myself
Not with what I think—
But how normal it feels
To hate being alive

I imagine peace
And it doesn’t look like heaven
It looks like silence
And nobody needing me

Break (instrument drop / chant)
Still breathing
Still bleeding
Still pretending I’m healing

Final Chorus (lower, heavier)
I don’t wanna die
I just want relief
From carrying ghosts
That won’t let me sleep
If tomorrow comes
I’ll meet it numb
Still alive—
But not for fun

I don’t wanna die
So I stay instead
Out of spite, out of fear
Out of things left unsaid

Outro
If this song ends
And I’m still here
That counts for something—
Even if it doesn’t feel like it

2023/7500

Verse 1 Woke up with my teeth clenched tight Like I fought myself all night Ceiling fan counting every sin I didn’t commit—but still live in I drag my name through another day Wear my face like a cheap disguise If anyone asks if I’m okay I learned how to lie with my eyes Pre-Chorus I’m not suicidal—just tired of pain Tired of praying for something to change Tired of hearing “you’ll be alright” From people who sleep fine every night Chorus I don’t wanna die I just want this to stop The noise in my head The rot in my thoughts I’m holding my breath Like that’ll make it pass Still here, still stuck Still cutting time in half I don’t wanna die But I don’t wanna be Trapped in a body That’s killing me Verse 2 I keep my demons well-dressed So they don’t scare the guests I make dark jokes, make it cute If they knew, they’d run too Every memory’s got teeth Every silence screams at me I replay shit I can’t undo Like it’s evidence I’m proof Pre-Chorus They say “reach out,” but I don’t know how Without being a burden now I’ve learned how to disappear While still standing right here Chorus I don’t wanna die I just want this to stop The echo of failure I can’t shut off I’m counting the cracks In my bedroom walls Each one whispering “Just let go… fall” I don’t wanna die But I don’t wanna stay Another night bargaining With my brain Bridge (raw, almost spoken) Some days I scare myself Not with what I think— But how normal it feels To hate being alive I imagine peace And it doesn’t look like heaven It looks like silence And nobody needing me Break (instrument drop / chant) Still breathing Still bleeding Still pretending I’m healing Final Chorus (lower, heavier) I don’t wanna die I just want relief From carrying ghosts That won’t let me sleep If tomorrow comes I’ll meet it numb Still alive— But not for fun I don’t wanna die So I stay instead Out of spite, out of fear Out of things left unsaid Outro If this song ends And I’m still here That counts for something— Even if it doesn’t feel like it

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