[INTRO — distant apartment noise, heartbeat kick, breathy vocal] Wake up in yesterday’s jeans again Blue neon bleeding through the curtains You sleep beside me in ripped black tights Lipstick stains still on the kitchen knife WHAT DAY IS IT? [scream] WHAT MONTH IS THIS? [scream] Every night melts into the next Like a siren on a sinking ship [low distant fry scream layered underneath]: (sink with me…) [VERSE 1 — restrained, hollow, slowly unraveling] Bathroom mirror, cracked like me Skin too pale, sharp collarbones Fuck, I look half-dead in this liiiiight [falsetto echo]: (light… light…) A ghost pretending to belong. Someone’s laughing in the next room Someone I don’t even know [falsetto echo]: (know… know…) Vomit drying in the sink Cigarette burns across the floor [scream] [PRE-CHORUS — explosive build, almost religious confession] We let strangers sleep inside our bed (inside our bed…) We let chemicals rewrite our heads [background false chord scream]: (rewrite...) Dance on tables, kiss like saints (saints… saints…) Laugh so loud we hide the PAIN!! [scream] You tighten up the band around your arm [falsetto echo] Like one more rush could stop the ROT!! [scream] I keep looking for a way out But morning always shows what we are — RUINED!!! [scream] [CHORUS — screamed, huge drums, layered harmonies] RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUINED [high harmony above the scream] RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUINED [high scream + low growl layered together] [echo repeating in distance]: (ruined… ruined… ruined…) [VERSE 2 — louder, frantic, glamorous collapse] Kitchen floor covered in silver rain Frozen pasta, plastic cups Cheap red wine and dirty lungs Everybody lost inside it [scream] You spin around in leopard print Velvet gloves and glitter tears Bare feet crashing on the table Speakers choking on the bass [scream] I swear I almost left this house once [drop in instrumentation] But morning always shows what I am — RUINED!!! [scream] [CHORUS — full collapse, desperate scream] RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUINED [choir harmony rises underneath] RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUINED [high scream + low growl layered together] [distorted scream in background] Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh [STRONG PRAYER BREAK] OH, GREAT GOD, I BEG OF YOU, GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO RESIST THIS RUIN I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH LIGHT LEFT IN ME [scream] BEFORE THE DARKNESS TAKES ME — [scream] AHHHHHH!!! RUINED!!! [scream] RUINED!!! [scream] [FINAL CHORUS — violent return, full drums and choir] RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUINED [high scream + low growl layered together] Ahhhhhhh [scream] (whisper loop fading into silence)
