[Intro] This is not a cry for help This is how I stay alive Not a cry, not a cry I’m still here tonight [Verse 1] My forehead on the cold stone floor I hear rust where the bells once rang Wax runs down and burns my fingers But the fire in my chest remains The wounds I never let them see I folded into shapes of prayer I didn’t kneel to be forgiven I knelt so I would not break there Through the high glass like a blade Blue morning cut its way inside This salt that never turned to tears Still burned white behind my throat [Pre-Chorus] Nameless pain, get on your feet Drag your teeth through the chapel heat Take this breath they pinned in place Crack the roof and leave no trace [Chorus] This is not a cry for help This is not a prayer This is how I stay alive With blood still in the air Burn the nights my knees remember Break the doors they locked so well I did not come here just to fall Stand broken, and stand anyway [Post-Chorus] Not a cry Not a cry Not a cry for help I’m still here I’m still here Still ringing like a bell [Verse 2] I cannot swallow gentle lies Even dressed like blessings Even if I lose the name of grace My pulse still keeps its counting A pretty voice for someone else Has never moved the world at all With soot beneath my fingernails I mark myself and do not bow [Pre-Chorus] Closed gate, stay there, hold your place I’ll make a crown from helplessness One shard of every shattered dream Pressed to my brow, I move ahead [Chorus] This is not a cry for help This is not a prayer This is how I stay alive With blood still in the air Shake the stone beneath the altar Let the sound climb through my bones I did not grow this pain to drown I grew it into waves [Post-Chorus] Not a cry Not a cry Not a cry for help I’m still here I’m still here Still ringing like a bell [Bridge] If this voice is punishment Then silence is betrayal Holding everything I lost I am becoming the door No one has to come save me Wind comes in where I am torn With morning still stuck in my chest Tonight, be born again right here [Break] Break apart Still ring out Ring with every crack still showing Do not fade With that white breath Push back the edge of dawn [Final Chorus] This is not a cry for help Prayer won’t reach that far tonight So crawl through the stained-glass crack Go bare into the morning light Bloom now, wound and all Bleed if you must, but don’t crawl Until the final tear strikes stone I will not stop being myself [Final Post-Chorus] Not a cry Not a cry Not a cry for help I’m still here I’m still here Still ringing like a bell [Outro] This voice is not a cry for help It is the sound of choosing to live here
