[Intro] [Fast syncopated ethereal breakbeat percussion and airy rolling hi-hats, 145 BPM] [Soft ambient piano chords and shimmering reverb pads enter beneath the fast rhythm] [Verse 1] [Fast delicate electronic percussion groove, ambient piano resonance, atmospheric pads] [Dr. Blood — male tenor, somber, pleading, slow measured tempo over the fast beat] Chasing the beautiful dream I thought that I could be loved if I became like you (mmm, mmm) Chasing the immortal dream I thought that I could belong if I became like you (mmm, mmm) I gave my humanity I gave my blood, my heart, my name I thought eternity Would make you love me just the same [Verse 2] [Steady fast syncopated drums continue, deep ambient piano notes, ethereal undertone] [Dr. Blood — darker, regretful, somber and emotional delivery] Now I am hated by them The vampires look at me and turn away in shame (mmm, mmm) Now I am hated by you You walk as mortal as before and curse my name (mmm, mmm) Lucaroth is gone from me My friend, my traitor, vanquished in the night Esther is human now And every dream I chased has died [Chorus] [Ethereal percussion swells, rich ambient piano, massive atmospheric wall of sound] [Dr. Blood — powerful male emotional voice, soaring, pleading anguish, high register] I can’t have it all I can’t be loved and still be free, forever lost I can’t have it all I can’t be human, immortal, loved, without the cost I’m losing something Losing something Losing something I’m losing something Losing something Losing something Losing everything [Verse 3] [Fast ethereal drum loop resumes, delicate piano arpeggios, atmospheric tension] [Dr. Blood — theatrical, building with anguish, pleading tenor, steady normal tempo] I wanted love and endless night I wanted you and endless life, but now I know (mmm, mmm) I wanted both, I wanted more But every gift I begged for left me wanting more (mmm, mmm) I changed myself to be adored I broke the man I was before And now I stand between the worlds With neither love nor home nor soul [Verse 4] [Drums filter to a softer crisp breakbeat, sustained ambient piano chords] [Dr. Blood — softer, resigned, melancholic and somber] I cannot go back to the man Who watched the morning rise and dreamed he’d find his place (mmm, mmm) I cannot join the undead They see a monster wearing flesh and turn away (mmm, mmm) My lover walks beneath the sun My old friend sleeps beneath the earth I won eternity But lost the things that made it worth [Chorus] [Full emotional climax, powerful soaring male lead vocal, layered ethereal harmonies, driving fast percussion] I can’t have it all I can’t be loved and still be free, forever lost I can’t have it all I can’t be human, immortal, loved, without the cost I’m losing something Losing something Losing something I’m losing something Losing something Losing something Losing everything [Outro] [Percussion filters and dissolves into distance, ambient piano chords ring out in heavy reverb] [Dr. Blood — quiet, lonely, somber pleading vocal] I wanted everything And everything became my chains I wanted love and endless life But all I found was endless pain [Soft ethereal backing vocal harmony] You cannot have it all You cannot have it all [Dr. Blood — intimate spoken whisper] For wanting all has cost me everything. [Sustained ambient piano chord fades out into ethereal silence]
