What happened before this happened?

What happened before this happened? I tried to say what couldn't be said Why am I not allowed to talk about this problem? I feel like I'm selling my soul, and it's getting rejected. I don't know which is worse I'm asking for help while trying to give it. I'm taking what I am giving. Can you do it? Give to them the very thing they try to take away? There's no reason to be here, everyone wants the same thing. Even if more can be made, they'll never make it themselves. How can you give what you're trying to take? You'll make millions, and you'll lose it all if you don't let go of it. Let go of life. You can't hold onto it no more than you can hold the light. If it's an ember, it'll burn you with it. I'll die before I learn I'll live before I burn