Ringtones in the Silence

**(Hook)** That call came through, now the whole world fractured, Cold news, soul bruised, couldn't hold my balance, One voice, one choice, one moment of damage, Now I hear that ringtone in the silence. That call came through, now my heart's rearranged, Dark room, sharp truth, everything changed, I keep going through the memories, Wishing I could press rewind on the tragedy. **(Verse 1)** Phone vibrating, I was staring at the caller ID, Never knew the information would demolish me, Somebody spoke, but the words wouldn't register, Felt my blood turn cold, like my soul left the messenger. Disassociation, staring at the wall vacant, Mind racing, heart breaking, trying to translate it, "Tell me that it's not true," I was begging for a correction, But the silence in the room gave me all the confirmation. Now I'm stuck in recollections, overthinking every second, Every conversation that I never thought I'd question, Could've called a little sooner, could've shown a little more, Now I'm arguing with ghosts that I can never reach anymore. And the guilt keeps circulating, like a sickness in my system, I keep searching for a reason, but the answers never listen, People tell me to accept it, like acceptance makes it painless, But the absence has a language and it screams inside my brain, bitch. **(Hook)** That call came through, now the whole world fractured, Cold news, soul bruised, couldn't hold my balance, One voice, one choice, one moment of damage, Now I hear that ringtone in the silence. That call came through, now my heart's rearranged, Dark room, sharp truth, everything changed, I keep going through the memories, Wishing I could press rewind on the tragedy. **(Verse 2)** I been hiding all the hurt underneath the harmonies, Turning trauma into tracks, letting sorrow talk for me, Everybody sees the artist, nobody sees the aftermath, Nobody knows how many nights I had to battle with the past. I see your face in the photos, hear your voice in the videos, Try to keep the connection, but the distance only widens though, Every holiday is heavy, every birthday hits different, 'Cause the person I would celebrate with is permanently missing. And I still check my phone like the impossible is possible, Like a notification could reverse the irreversible, I know that's irrational, but grief ain't mathematical, Love makes you chase a miracle that's fundamentally impossible. I got anger in my chest and a thousand unsent messages, Questions with no answers, memories that keep developing, You were more than just a brother, you were family and foundation, Now I'm building from the rubble of a permanent separation. **(Bridge)** If I could call you, would you answer? If I could see you, would you stay? I'd tell you every word I swallowed, Every feeling I delayed. No more waiting, no more maybe, No more wishing you were near, I'd tell you that I love you, Make it crystal fucking clear. **(Final Hook)** That call came through, now the whole world fractured, Cold news, soul bruised, couldn't hold my balance, One voice, one choice, one moment of damage, Now I hear that ringtone in the silence. That call came through, but your name still remains, In the songs, in the scars, in the blood in my veins, I can't reverse the moment, can't retrieve yesterday, But I'll carry you forever in every word that I say.