Incompletion

I found you through Sadie and Sallie and Mike I thought that we clicked because we talked all night You gave me your number and I gave you mine We both walked away I thought we'd be "fine" Why do I do this How do I stop How do I give my Insta The Photoshop Crop I'm worried about how this really ends When you said we should be "better off friends" I'm up with the kettle and the screen still blue Refreshing your name like it's something I do At 2:17 I'm pacing the floor I hear every little buzz like a knock at the door I reread your laugh in the old SMS thread Then stare at the ceiling and spin in my bed I tell myself easy I tell myself chill But my hands keep reaching for somebody still Why do I do this How do I stop How do I give my Facebook The ghost and then drop I'm worried about how this really ends When you said we should be "better off friends" Now I know your route from the dips by the curb The light by your place in your parent's suburb I keep your old photo in the notes on my phone I want you right here and we won't leave alone I call once, then twice, to hear you breathe At the edge of your driveway at the end of your street My smile gets absurd when you say you're okay Then I laugh through the cracks in the mask I display If you don't answer, I get scared in my head I can taste all the trouble it all goes unsaid Why do I do this How do I stop How do I scroll twitter Hit mute and then block I'm worried about how this really ends When you said we should be "better off friends" Every breath you take Every move you make Is my last mistake I'm about to break Have to unfollow you