Not at war anymore. Took me long enough to say that out loud. Now it's cartoons in the morning where the silence used to sit Tiny shoes beside the doorway, quiet proof of who I'm not Coffee going cold beside me, little footsteps down the hall Funny how the smallest voice became the loudest of them all Some men spend their whole life wishing they could start again Trade the fire for a straight road, leave behind the damage done But every wrong turn, every wreck, every night I barely lived Led me here I can't and won't undo it, every bruise and every fall Pull one thread from the wreckage and she never comes at all So I keep the whole damn road, the spiral and the scars Impromptu family man with building blocks and finger-painted stars She never comes at all - so I carry all of it I was built from bad decisions, half-healed wounds and dumb mistakes Anger like a live wire humming underneath the shape I'd made Then she laughed and something in me finally lost the will to run Turns out all the worst in me still managed to build someone A small voice calls me back now From places I would disappear And the noise I used to run from Is the only thing I hear I can't and won't undo it, every bruise and every fall Pull one thread from the wreckage and she never comes at all So I keep the whole damn road, the spiral and the scars Impromptu family man with building blocks and finger-painted stars I carried the weight so she would never have to learn how. Every scar I keep is one she'll never wear Every mile behind me means she starts somewhere That road can stay buried. She's the reason I don't dig. I won't curse the road that broke me when I had nobody else Even broken things can shelter someone else I can't and won't undo it, every bruise and every fall Pull one thread from the wreckage and she never comes at all So I keep the whole damn road, the spiral and the scars Impromptu family man beneath her paper moons and stars Can't undo it, won't undo it Not the hurt, not the years 'Cause somewhere in that wreckage Is the reason she's here Not at war anymore.
