I was small, you were a giant then We were wild, running through the violet wind I didn't know that time was a thief in the night Stealing the color from your muzzle, stealing the light I grew above, and you grew slow Watching the seasons come, watching them go I didn't know how to speak the language of loss I just knew I’d pay whatever the cost. But the gravity shifted, the earth started shaking I saw your legs trembling, I saw my heart breaking On the floor of the livingroom, I gathered you near Told you secrets that only we’d hear. And you took your last breath right here in my hands And I felt the collapse of my internal lands It was heavy, so heavy, the silence that fell A personal heaven turned private hell So I lock up the gate, and I swallow the key ‘Cause I can’t let another one do this to me No, I won’t let another one do this to me. Now I’m older, living in a sterile space I turn my head when I see a similar face They say I’m cold, that I should just start again But they don’t understand the psychology of the pain It’s a trauma response, it’s a shield on my chest I can’t invite a new ghost to be my guest Because love is a debt that I cannot afford When the memory of you is the only reward. Yeah, the gravity shifted, the earth is still shaking I’m still a teenager, I’m still sitting there aching On the floor of the livingroom, holding the weight Begging the universe to change your fate. ‘Cause you took your last breath right here in my hands And I felt the collapse of my internal lands It was heavy, so heavy, the silence that fell A personal heaven turned private hell So I lock up the gate, and I swallow the key ‘Cause I can’t let another one do this to me No, I won’t let another one do this to me. I am terrified of the goodbye! I am terrified to watch something die! I have too much love, but it’s frozen in ice I paid with my childhood, I paid the full price I can’t do it over, I can’t watch the fade I’m living inside of the shelter I made! ‘Cause you took your last breath right here in my hands... And I felt the collapse of my internal lands It was heavy, so heavy... So I lock up the gate, and I swallow the key ‘Cause I can’t let another one do this to me. I won’t risk the fall. I won’t risk it at all. Just you. It’s always just you. ---------------------------------------------------------------- © BEAT 2026 All rights reserved. This lyrics is protected by copyright. No copying, distribution, or use is allowed without written permission from the copyright holder. ----------------------------------------------------------------
