Hi, I catch myself in the mirror again Mascara on, 손이 싱크대 위에서 떨려 [Mascara on, sonei singkeudae wi-eseo tteollyeo | Mascara on, my hands are shaking over the sink] One foot in the hallway, one foot out 이렇게 오래 살았는데, 깜빡하지도 않아 [Ireoke orae saranneunde, kkambbakhajido anha | I’ve lived like this so long, I don’t even forget] 넌 이를 꽉 다물고 웃는 법을 배웠지 [Neon ireul kkwak damulgo utneun beobeul baewotji | You learned how to smile with your jaw clenched] 난 도망치고 싶을 때 고개 끄덕이는 법을 배웠어 [Nan domangchigo sipeul ttae gogae kkeudeokineun beobeul baewosseo | I learned how to nod when I wanted to run] Same room, same pulse, same tired coat 그저 태양 아래 살아남는 다른 방식이었을 뿐 [Geujeo taeyang arae saranamneun dareun bangsigiyeotdeul ppun | It was just another way to survive under the sun] And I know why you stayed so close 방이 시끄러워질 때 날 작게 만들었지 [Bangi shikkeureowajil ttae nal jakge mandeureotji | When the room got loud, you made me smaller] But I can feel you loosening now 마침내 풀리는 매듭처럼 [Machimnae pullineun maedeupcheoreom | Like a knot finally coming loose] So hi, hi, hi I’m not scared of you anymore You were my hiding place Now you’re the door Hi, hi, hi We don’t split in two Say it out loud Maybe it comes true Soft, hard I’m both That’s the whole joke I’m both That’s the whole joke 넌 사람들이 던진 이름들을 찰싹 때렸지 [Neon saramdeuri deonjineun ireumdeureul chalsak ttaeryeotji | You slapped away the names people threw] 버스표처럼 내 피부에 찍어냈어 [Beoseupyo-cheoreom nae pibue jjigeonessa | You stamped them on my skin like bus tickets] 내 손을 후드티 주머니에 묻어뒀고 [Nae soneul hudeuti jumeonie mudeodwotgo | I kept my hands buried in my hoodie pocket] 뒷좌석 유리창에 내 가슴을 꽉 조여놨지 [Dwitjwaseok yulichange nae gaseumeul kkwak joyeonwatji | I tightened my chest against the backseat window] 그리고 내 목소리가 얼마나 얇아졌는지 싫었어 [Geurigo nae moksoriga eolmana yalbajyeonneunji silheosseo | And I hated how thin my voice got] 턱을 꽉 다문 채 웃고 있는 내가 싫었지 [Teokeul kkwak damun chae utgo inneun naega silheotji | I hated me, smiling with my jaw locked] But every chain you wrapped around the world 내 목을 조이는 또 다른 고리였어 [Nae mokeul joineun tto dareun goriyeosseo | Was another ring tightening around my neck] Still, you were trying to keep me safe 입들과 소음, 그리고 열기로부터 [Ipdeulgwa so-eum, geurigo yeolgirobuteo | From mouths, noise, and the heat] 네 뼈 속에 살았던 두려움이 보여 [Ne ppyeo soge saratdeon duryeoumi boyeo | I can see the fear that lived in your bones] 네 발밑의 멍이 보여 [Ne balmit-ui meongi boyeo | I can see the bruise under your feet] So hi, hi, hi I’m not scared of you anymore You were my hiding place Now you’re the door Hi, hi, hi We don’t split in two Say it out loud Maybe it comes true Soft, hard I’m both That’s the whole joke I’m both That’s the whole joke 널 잘라낼 필요는 없어 [Neol jallanael piryoneun eopseo | You don’t need to cut it off] 그저 숨 쉴 공간이 필요할 뿐 [Geujeo sum swil gonggani piryohal ppun | It just needs room to breathe] 오래된 껍질은 벗겨지고 [Oraedoen kkeopjireun beotgyeojigo | The old shell peels away] 진정한 내가 걷게 해줘 [Jinjeonghan naega geotge haejwo | Let the real me walk] Front door, daylight Bare face, no script No more rehearsal I’m done with the grip Hi, hi, hi Look at us, we made it through You were my way back home And I was waiting there for you Hi, hi, hi We don’t split in two I keep the parts that were scarred by the truth I can be loud I can be calm I can be both of us all along So hi It’s me And I’m still here
