[Verse 1] Wake up with makeup smeared on my face Same old playlist, same damn place Scrollin’ through ghosts in my contact list Exes, friends — all I miss Light one up just to feel the air Laugh too loud so I don’t care Drown myself in beats and bass ‘Cause silence got your name engraved [Pre-Chorus] I’m not okay, but I play the part Turn the volume up to drown my heart [Chorus] So I sing too loud, I smoke too much I drink too fast, I crave that rush Kiss the wrong ones just to feel right Stay out late to kill the night I keep running from the pain I hide Music’s the only thing that keeps me alive I don't feel love, I just feel the beat Lost in this runaway routine [Verse 2] Mirror says I’ve been gone for days But I’m still here, just in a haze Call it healing, call it sin Whatever helps me breathe again I dance with shadows in my mind Every hug just feels like a lie They say "come home", but where's that now? When I can't even face myself somehow [Pre-Chorus] I’m not okay, but it’s fine to fake I just need the music not to break [Chorus] So I sing too loud, I smoke too much I drink too fast, I crave that rush Kiss the wrong ones just to feel right Stay out late to kill the night I keep running from the pain I hide Music’s the only thing that keeps me alive I don't feel love, I just feel the beat Lost in this runaway routine [Bridge] I miss who I was before the fall Now I'm a stranger to it all But if I stop, the silence screams So I keep living in these dreams [Chorus – final] So I sing too loud, I smoke too much I drink too fast, I crave that rush Kiss the wrong ones just to feel right Stay out late to kill the night I keep running from the pain I hide Music’s the only thing that keeps me alive I don't feel love, I just feel the beat Still lost in my runaway routine
