I’ve been staring at the ceiling Like it owes me something back Every thought a rusted nailhead Hammered through the center crack And the morning tastes like chemicals Razor blade cold in the sink I keep talking to the mirror But it won’t say what I think I’m low Like the basement under god I feel like shit Like a body left to rot And every smile I fake Feels thinner than skin I wanna disappear Don’t wanna be found again Everybody says keep breathing Like that’s some kind of sacred art But my lungs feel full of concrete And my ribs cave in apart I’ve been sleeping with the TV on Just to drown out what I know That I’m tired in a way that sleep Can’t even fucking touch anymore I’m low Buried under every thought I feel like shit Like I’m something to be caught In the static and the noise In the ache beneath my skin I wanna disappear Let the silence take me in I don’t want heaven I don’t want hell I just want quiet For a while I just want the weight Off my chest I just want one night Without myself Maybe I’ll wake up different Maybe the dark burns thin Maybe the dead air in this room Finally lets the light back in But tonight I’m just a ghost in my own skin I’m low And the ground keeps giving out I feel like shit And I’m drowning in the doubt Every nerve lit up like wires Every memory wearing thin I wanna disappear But I still don’t know where to begin So I sit here in the dim light Waiting for the ache to pass Like rainwater down cracked pavement Like smoke fading from glass
