PARASITE

A longer version of this track was originally created for the Mentor Mashup Challenge hosted by the StorytellerZ. During @Eqvirther’s week: Glitchcore × Metalcore. If you write with intention, care about the space between the notes, and want to talk about it with people who do too — you’re welcome in our Discord: https://discord.gg/storytellerz ★ >>>>>>>> ★ >>>>>>>>> ★ <<<<<<<<< ★ <<<<<<<< ★ ꧁ © Lyrics by Mafalda Fummel ꧂ 🫀💋🧠 ✩ StorytellerZ: https://discord.gg/pXKrJtmAe7 ✩ >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>♥️<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< I know this feeling I've been here before You came in soft The way they always do Brought your need wrapped up in warmth and called it something true I watched you learn my edges memorize the parts of me that made you feel like something gave you somewhere you could be But being wasn't what you wanted What you wanted was a shape Someone who would fit your outline Someone who would not escape And slowly—so slowly I started speaking in your key Started leaving gaps in sentences for you to finish me And I know this pull I know this weight I've worn it in a smaller body in a room I couldn't navigate You're not loving me You're feeding Calling it connection while you absorb me out I'm not a home for what you're needing Not the answer to your doubt You built a myth around our closeness we and us and what we share Every thing I did became your evidence Every step I took: your stairs When I moved, you named it ours When I spoke, you spoke it too Started wearing my conclusions like they'd always been in you And when I pulled back—just an inch you called it wound. Called it war Like the oxygen I needed was the air you'd been breathing for Every time I tried to name it you rewrote what I had said Turned my clarity to cruelty Turned my boundary to a threat And then came the renegotiation always back to what you need Every term redrawn around you Every compromise: your creed I have known this room before A smaller version. Years ago Where love meant losing altitude so slow you didn't know you were falling I know this pull. I know this weight Left it once already Rebuilt myself from what remained step back breathe then go You're not loving me You're feeding Calling it connection while you hollow me out I'm not a home for what you're needing Not the answer not the answer to your doubt You flinched when I stepped back Of course the current stopped You said You're so closed off You're so defended I just wanted to be close Flooding shame And for a moment I almost stayed Not because you were right Because I was grieving I wanted the friendship I want to say that clearly I wanted it to be real But real was never on the table Only managed Only sealed I know that move too There's a thing the nervous system knows before the mind catches up A tightening around the ribs A sudden need for more space. More air. More exit That's not anxiety That's intelligence Skin reads the room Gut names the game The body has been tracking this since long before it had a name I'm not broken for feeling it I'm not cold for leaving I just don't do conditional You're not loving You're feeding Calling it connection while you catalog my cost I'm not a home I'm not a host I'm not the thing you've almost— I'm the friend you lost I know the door Walked through it once in a smaller body Walking through it now …signal: clear ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️ https://suno.com/song/b8c4400f-7c25-4ee3-9464-8b74a471f454 ⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️