The Obedient Son

[Verse 1] Years disappeared while I played the obedient son. Head down. Eyes forward. Doing what had to be done. Now the war follows me home. Sits at the foot of my bed. Every night it whispers names. Every morning it lives in my head. The room gets small. My pulse gets loud. One wrong word. One face in a crowd. Everybody sees the temper. Nobody sees where it came from. [Pre-Chorus] They say "calm down." They Say "let it go." If it was that easy, Don't you think I'd know? [Chorus] I was the obedient son. I carried what they handed me. Brought it home in pieces. Now it's buried underneath my skin. I was the obedient son. The anger wasn't born. It was built. One memory. One nightmare. One trigger at a time. And now I'm the one Living with the fallout. [Verse 2] Blood in my teeth from biting my tongue. Years disappeared while I played the obedient son. I learned to keep my back to the wall. Learned to scan every room. Learned how to spot a threat Before it ever made a move. Funny thing is, Nobody told me when to stop. So I carried it home. Kept my guard up. Stayed ready for a fight That never showed up. Now every bad day feels like a match Dropped into gasoline. [Pre-Chorus] You call it anger. I feel the pressure. You see the explosion. I was detonated years ago. You just didn't know Didn't know [Chorus] I was the obedient son. I carried what they handed me. Brought it home in pieces. Now it's buried underneath my skin. I was the obedient son. The anger wasn't born. It was built. One memory. One nightmare. One trigger at a time. And now I'm the one Living with the fallout. [Bridge] You weren't there. You didn't hear it. Didn't see it. Didn't carry it. The weight is endless. You got the version That came back. Not the version That left. There's a big fucking difference. [Breakdown] Short fuse. Fast hands. Heart racing For no reason. Jaw locked. Sleep gone. Always waiting For something. Anything. to happen. [Final Chorus] I was the obedient son. I followed every order. Did my job. Paid the price. Now everybody wants to know Why I'm hard to live with. Why I'm hard to reach. Why I'm angry. I can't tell them that some things Don't stay where they happened. That some ghosts Don't know they're dead. I was the obedient son. But nobody taught me How to stop being one. Nobody taught me How to come home. This don't feel like home. This don't feel like home. I wanna come.... home