Pit of Dispair

Loneliness beyond comprehension Sadness in constant oscillation Silence is only comfort Anger is my only out Emotion buried six feet deep No business left but scream and shout GO! Malice, beckons hatred Hatred is the way Darkness creeping through me not giving ground Or light of day I fear I'll never be.... I fear I’ll never be the man who I want to be Winds of time, only ripping past me I sat back silent, did nothing at all Told I’d be something watched, myself fall I never believed I always doubted I am my own worst enemy Self-inflicted, self-surrounded Wake up, try to stay grounded Lost my happiness Lost my empathy Fill my lungs, but they find themselves empty Friends that left, Love that died, Emotion bereft, Stagnant in life, but dead on the inside Tears swell up they’ve got control The well runs dry, trauma takes its toll Emotion drained, on hollowed bones I rot alone with what I’ve known I wish I could heal and say I’m fine But the thought still poisons my fucking mind "I'll be your someone" "I'll offer you help" Just shut your mouth I'm in fucking hell BOW Be a stone Stoic, bitter, All I’ve ever known Be a rock Be a stone Hatred taught me How to, fucking, cope HATRED ANGER HATRED VIOLENCE HATRED I write the words ‘cause my voice won’t speak Just know, you all mean everything to me My eyes wide open, I see the truth I'm not alone, but i will see it through