Change

✨🐙 Lyrics by CalamariDreams 🐙✨ ⸻ Strange how the wicked sleep so sound While the rest of us are trying not to drown Counting every every one that needs to be made right Losing little pieces of myself each night There's a certain kind of cruelty in the peace Of the ones who take and never lose their sleep And the worst part of it all is knowing why Somebody has to pay to keep them satisfied But then I look down and I see your face And all the things I've lost don't feel like a waste These tired eyes are begging me to close There's still so much you shouldn't have to know So I keep the dark from crawling into view Let it take another little piece or two Even when there's nothing left of me to fight You're the reason I keep my eyes open at night Don't let me change But I gotta change To cope with this pain Even if I go insane With all these monsters around me I'd rather blend in Than let 'em end me Don't let me change But I gotta change Just so you Could smile another day Got to learn how to bear my teeth At things that used to make me weak There's something almost beautiful about becoming so disposable The bitter taste of being kind has left a different kind of mind And every time I cross that line another part of me resigned These hands have learned a crueler touch From holding on a little too much The things that used to make me sick Are getting easier to live with And if you saw beneath my skin Would you still let a stranger in Or would you turn away from me Like all the things I used to fear Go on, take another piece There's hardly anything left of me Bite my tongue until it bleeds What a lovely way to keep the peace Tear me apart and see what you find The monster's yours, but the blood is mine Don't let me change But I gotta change To cope with this pain Even if I go insane With all these monsters around me I'd rather blend in Than let 'em end me Don't let me change But I gotta change Just so you Could smile another day