
Trap Door Kindness
Verse 1) I remember the text when the group chat was made A trap wrapped in kindness, where the trap doors were laid She wanted her favorites to hold hands and smile But anxiety choked us, and it didn't take while For the silence to weaponize, the walls to rise high Two anxious girls staring, just wondering why We were forced into chemistry, forced into view And the coldness she gave me felt pointed and true. (Verse 2) Then the screaming match started, the panic broke loose And my best friend just watched us, tightening the noose She stood in the middle, she panicked and cried And suddenly I was the one pushed aside Forced to say sorry just to keep her afloat While the girlfriend got safety, I got the lifeboat I owned my anxiety, I bared my whole soul Just to watch her take everything that kept me whole. (Verse 3) — NEW But the part that cuts deepest, the part that still stings Is watching the loyalty my so-called bestie brings Instead of standing by me, she took the girl's side Defending her actions while my hands were tied She put all the blame on my shoulders and chest Like I was the monster, like I was the pest She covered for her while I stood in the rain Completely blind to the weight of my pain. (Chorus) Now I’m hidden away, I’m the ghost on the side I’m the secret she keeps where the friendship can hide She walks down the hallways with her hand in her hand While I’m left to sit in the shadow she planned It hurts like a betrayal disguised as a fix A clean slate for them, while I’m stuck in the bricks. (Verse 4) She says "everything’s fine," says "our friendship is safe" But she locked me outside of our favorite place She gets the bright school days, the lunches, the laughs While I get the weekends and the broken-up halves I have to go look for a different seat While they get to smile whenever they meet It’s a peaceful agreement that feels like a knife Cutting me completely out of her life. (Verse 5) I walk by their lockers and look at the floor I used to be welcome, but not anymore They share all the inside jokes I used to know While I trace my steps where the lonely kids go My best friend sent texts saying she feels so bad But she keeps the one thing that I wish I still had She took all the school days and locked up the key Giving her the sun, leaving shadows for me. (Verse 6) — NEW How do you point the finger at me in the end When you’re supposed to be my very best friend? You twisted the story to make her look right Leaving me alone to fight through the night You defended her lies, let her project her fear And made me the villain when the truth was so clear Now you say you're sorry, but the scales aren't even When you chose to believe her while my heart was bleeding. (Verse 7) It’s funny how fast a whole life can just rearrange How a forced group chat turns a bond into strange I’m the one who was there through the thick and the thin Now I’m standing outside watching her let her in She traded our memories for freshman year high And didn't even look when she walked right on by A part-time connection is all that is left A text on the weekend to heal the bereft. (Bridge) I hate that I’m forced to play nice and be calm While my chest is exploding like a ticking time bomb She manipulated my fears, used my brain as a tool And now I’m the outsider walking through school I’m glad she apologized, glad that she cares But it doesn’t erase how I’m left on the stairs. (Verse 8) The morning bell rings and the anxiety crawls It echoes so loud in these high school halls I whisper my name when they call the routine Trying to blend into the background scene They think it’s all settled because nobody’s screaming But my head is still spinning, my heart is still bleeding You can’t fix a break with a text that says "sorry" When I’m still the victim of your little story. (Outro) Go ahead, hold her hand, take the lunch table crown I’ll find my own safety when the walls crumble down I’ll hang with the guard, I’ll survive on my own But don't call me best friends when you leave me alone Yeah, the friendship is safe, but the damage is done You chose her for school, and I'm left with none. Yeah, you chose her for school... and I'm left with none.

