Didn’t Have To Be This Way (This song is about my past demons)

[Verse 1] I loved you like a prayer I held you in my hand Thought your kiss was heaven Didn’t know your other plan You wore my skin like silk You fed me sweet and slow I laughed while you were feeding On the parts I didn’t show I would’ve done anything Just to make you stay But you were setting fires In the corners of my name [Pre-Chorus] Now I see your teeth Now I see your face You never wanted mercy You only wanted space You took my breath hostage You took my house of light I didn’t see the war Till it was close to night [Chorus] I didn’t have to be this way (you broke my heart, you broke my name) I didn’t have to be this way (you wanted me dead, you wanted pain) Tonight it’s lights out No more games I didn’t have to be this way [Verse 2] My mama cried in silence My baby sister knew Dad kept asking how I got So far from who I knew I woke up in the wreckage With your mark on every wall You turned my love to ashes Told me I was nothing at all But pain can be a teacher And love can cut like steel I learned your voice was hunger Not a hand that could heal [Pre-Chorus] Now I see your teeth Now I see your face You never wanted mercy You only wanted space You took my breath hostage You took my house of light I didn’t see the war Till it was close to night [Chorus] I didn’t have to be this way (you broke my heart, you broke my name) I didn’t have to be this way (you wanted me dead, you wanted pain) Tonight it’s lights out No more games I didn’t have to be this way [Bridge] I stood up in the mirror And I met you eye to eye You called me by my weakness Tried to tell me that I’d die But I grabbed the blade of truth And I drove it through your throne You fell apart in pieces You were never really bone [Final Chorus] I didn’t have to be this way (you broke my heart, you broke my name) I didn’t have to be this way (you wanted me dead, you wanted pain) Tonight it’s lights out No more games I didn’t have to be this way Now I breathe for my family Now I carry broken hearts I killed the thing that owned me Now I’m healing where they are