[Verse 1] I have carved myself into shapes that don't exist Folded my bones into your architecture of absence You say my presence is a violence you can't withstand So I bleed myself quiet, dissolve at your command [Pre-Chorus] Read. Ignored. Abandoned. Your silence is a sermon I am the architect of bridges to your void While you watch me burn from the other side [Chorus] I am drowning in the effort of being less A slow erasure, a holy emptiness You need me smaller, need me gone But I'm the ghost in my own song I cannot unmake myself for you Even as I'm split in two [Verse 2] You vanish like breath on glass, no warning, no trace Return as if absence needs no apology, no grace "Your nature unsettles me," you confess without shame Then why do you stay to watch me disintegrate? [Verse 3] I beg for recognition of this open wound Just acknowledgment, just "I hurt you too" But you offer only "This is who I am, what more?" "It's exhausting, you know—you ask for too much, you're unsure" [Pre-Chorus] I reach through the dark with trembling hands You turn away to distant lands I have contorted into a thousand deaths While you call my needs "complicated," call me "excess" [Chorus] I am drowning in the effort of being less A slow erasure, a holy emptiness You need me smaller, need me gone But I'm the ghost in my own song I cannot unmake myself for you Even as I'm split in two [Bridge] I am grieving and I need you to witness it But my sadness is an inconvenience you won't permit "I am what I am, accept or leave" While I fold myself so small I can barely breathe This sorrow isn't for what we were It's for the self I murdered The altar of you I've been kneeling at While you never once knelt back [Breakdown] (I have given you my vertebrae, one by one) (Rebuilt myself in your image) (And still) (Still, I am too much) [Final Chorus] I will not drown in the effort anymore Will not make myself less than I was before You wanted me smaller, wanted me gone Now watch me resurrect in this song My needs are not violence, they are truth And I am done sacrificing myself for you [Outro] You are who you are—I accept this now And I am who I am—watch me remember how Without you feeding on my light I will burn catastrophic and bright (Finally with me) (Whole, finally with me)