[spoken] You always said “what ifs” are dangerous Like looking backwards too long’ll get you killed Said there’s no point in wondering About roads nobody took But tonight… Fuck it… I’m gonna ask anyway Come here… Listen to this one [Verse 1] What if I never answered when your name lit up my phone? Would I still be livin’ in that house feelin’ completely alone? Smilin’ for appearances while dyin’ inside slow Sleepin’ beside somebody I stopped knowin’ years ago Back then I was surviving, not really alive Learned how to bury tears and call it bein’ a wife Every conversation felt rehearsed and cold Two people goin’ through motions in a story already old Then there you were with those tired bloodshot eyes Lookin’ half destroyed but somehow still alive You smiled like a warning, talked like a loaded gun But underneath your chaos… God, I saw someone And maybe that’s the moment Everything inside me changed When you looked me dead in the eyes And said you were done livin’ that way [Bridge] 2 AM and your heartbeat under my hand Both of us too broken to completely understand Moonlight spillin’ quiet through the cracks in the blinds Two damaged souls tryna outrun their own minds [Pre-Hook] And maybe you don’t know How much that choice meant Watchin’ you fight your demons Instead of drownin’ in them [Hook] What if I never touched you? What if I stayed afraid? Would I still be slowly disappearin’ every day? What if you never chose me over all the hell you lived in? Would you still be out there somewhere slowly givin’ in? ’Cause truth is, baby I watched you break those chains Walk away from the darkness Even while it screamed your name Yeah I know it wasn’t easy God, I watched the war you fought Now every “what if” ends With everything we almost lost [Verse 2] I remember one night, rain crashin’ on the hood You were drivin’ too fast through a neighborhood you barely understood One hand on the wheel, one hand shakinn’ bad Tryin’ to laugh it off while I watched you collapse You said, “Baby don’t worry, I’m just losin’ my mind” But I could hear the exhaustion buried underneath the line And I knew right then Lovin’ you meant pain But I also knew you were finally tryin’ to change Slowly the smoke cleared from around your soul You started fightin’ battles nobody else could know Some nights were ugly Some almost pulled you under But you kept crawlin’ toward me through the wreckage and thunder [Bridge] Cigarette glow and your shadow on the wall You kiss me like tomorrow doesn’t matter at all And maybe that’s the danger, maybe that’s the truth I fell in love with your darkness and the strength inside you [Pre-Hook] So if you drift sometimes Or disappear inside your head Just remember there was a version of you That finally chose life instead [Hook] What if I never touched you? What if I stayed afraid? Would I still be slowly disappearin’ every day? What if you never chose me over all the hell you lived in? Would you still be out there somewhere slowly givin’ in? ’Cause truth is, baby I watched you break those chains Walk away from the darkness Even while it screamed your name Yeah I know it wasn’t easy God, I watched the war you fought Now every “what if” ends With everything we almost lost [Outro] [spoken softly] You keep sayin’ I saved you… But baby… You saved yourself first You made the hardest choice a person can make You chose to stay alive long enough To let somebody love you honestly And maybe that’s what scares me most Because now when I look at you I don’t see the man you were when we met anymore I see the man who fought his way back Just to stand beside me.
