Soft Again

I’m learnin’ how to be soft again Let the light come through the cracks within I was hard just to survive the pain Now I’m healin’, I’m soft again I’m learnin’ how to feel, not hide Let my guard fall to the side I don’t gotta fight every wave I can rest… I can be brave I built armor I couldn’t remove Every emotion I had to prove Turned my heart into something steel ‘Cause feelin’ meant somethin’ real I shut down just to stay okay Pushed the love that came my way Didn’t trust what I couldn’t see Didn’t trust what was good for me Every tear felt like defeat Every moment I felt weak So I buried it deep inside Let the silence be my guide But I’m tired of livin’ numb like that Tired of never relaxin’ back Tired of carryin’ all this weight Like I don’t deserve a better state So I’m lettin’ the walls come down Even if it shakes me now I don’t gotta be that strong If strong means I’ve been wrong I’m learnin’ how to be soft again Not fragile, just open within There’s a difference I never knew Now I’m seein’ a clearer view I’m learnin’ how to breathe, not brace How to sit in a quiet space Without fear of what might break Or what feelin’ I might face It’s strange to let the calm come in After years of defensive skin Every peace feels unfamiliar Like I’m walkin’ through somethin’ clearer I flinch at kindness sometimes still Like it’s somethin’ that might kill But I’m learnin’ day by day Not all love fades away I don’t gotta earn every care Don’t gotta prove I deserve repair I can just exist and be Without fightin’ to be seen I don’t need to hold it all I can lean, I don’t have to fall I can speak what’s on my chest And still be worthy of rest I’m relearnin’ what it means To live life without extremes Not all guarded, not all pain There’s a balance I can maintain Soft again, but not the same I still carry what I became But I don’t let it close me off I found strength inside the soft Soft again, yeah I choose this lane Where I don’t gotta hide the pain I can feel and still be strong I been holdin’ on too long Now I sit with what I feel Don’t run fast, don’t conceal Let it pass, let it move Let my heart relearn its groove I don’t shame what comes to light Even tears can make me right They don’t break me, they release They bring me closer to my peace And I finally understand Strength ain’t always takin’ a stand Sometimes strength is lettin’ go And allowin’ yourself to grow I’m not numb, I’m alive again Let the healing finally begin Every breath feels more like me Every moment I feel free I don’t fear what I might feel I embrace what becomes real I’m not who I was back then I’m whole… I’m soft again I thought being soft would break me… Turns out… it’s the reason I finally healed