Verse 1 Well I’ve not been smoking For twelve years now Stopped drinking three months ago Thought I’d feel different somehow Tried to take it day by day Tried to straighten out my head But every morning feels the same Like I’m dragging out of bed Pre-Chorus They all say time will heal you If you just keep pushing through But nobody talks about the silence When nothing feels brand new Chorus It doesn’t seem to matter What I do or what I don’t I’m not changing on the inside And God knows that I want to I still feel heavy Like the weight won’t let me move Still get tired too damn fast Still fighting the same old blues I quit the poison years ago But the ache still hangs around Yeah I cleaned up all my habits But I still feel broken down Verse 2 My stomach’s still there My knees still hurt Mirror keeps reminding me How hard life can work Everybody says “keep going” Like that fixes every scar But some nights I still feel stranded No matter where we are Pre-Chorus I thought maybe I’d wake up And finally feel alright But healing ain’t a straight road It’s a fight most every night Chorus It doesn’t seem to matter What I do or what I don’t I’m not changing on the inside And God knows that I want to I still feel heavy Like the weight won’t let me move Still get tired too damn fast Still fighting the same old blues Bridge Maybe progress ain’t a lightning strike Maybe it’s slower than we think Maybe surviving all these years Means more than I give credit to me Maybe scars don’t disappear Maybe they just fade with time Maybe waking up and trying again Is its own kind of climb Final Chorus I still feel heavy But maybe not the way before Maybe strength ain’t feeling perfect Maybe it’s still walking through the door I quit the things that killed me Even if I still feel worn And maybe healing doesn’t happen All at once overnight anymore
