You still make the tea for two in the morning One cup goes cold on the counter by noon I've been reading the room like a letter I've already opened Still acting surprised at the news There's a half-second pause when I say that I love you A rest in the bar where the downbeat should be And I've been calling it nothing, I've been calling it Tuesday I've been calling it anything but what it means to me I've been holding my breath like that's holding us together Building a house out of maybe and soon But in my heart of hearts In the small unlit room where I keep what I know I've been packing your things since the summer In my heart of hearts, I already let you go And you can only fight the tears if you're crying So I must've been crying a long, long time I just kept my face turned toward the window In my heart of hearts, in mine You laugh at my jokes half a beat behind schedule I stopped telling the one that you loved There's a way that a person can stay in a doorway Body inside, but the rest of them gone And I never once caught you in anything cruel That's the thing that's the hardest to say Nobody broke it, we just quietly outgrew it Like a song that we finished but left on repeat anyway I've been calling it a rough patch, calling it the weather Calling it the winter, but baby, it's June And in my heart of hearts In the small unlit room where I keep what I know I've been rehearsing this kitchen-table sentence In my heart of hearts, I already let you go 'Cause you can only fight the tears if you're crying So I must've been crying a long, long time I just kept my face turned toward the window In my heart of hearts, in mine Tell me the truth is a kindness Tell me it's better we say it out loud I've been so gentle with the lie I was keeping I forgot I was holding it Now look at my hands In my heart of hearts (my heart of hearts) Where the light doesn't reach and the truth doesn't pose I loved you all the way to the ending In my heart of hearts, I already let you go (let you go) And you can only fight the tears if you're crying God, I must've been crying this whole damn time (whole damn time) I just kept my face turned toward the window In my heart of hearts (oh, my heart) In my heart of hearts (in my heart of hearts) In mine
