Verse 1) I’m sitting in my sweater, but my hands still shake Counting up the promises you’re bound to break You left me with a "never loved you" burning in my chest Now you’re hovering around again, putting me to test Elan brought the message, said you tried to pull her near But she’s dating someone else, and the boundaries are clear You only want my comfort when you’re in a lonely place Throwing mixed signals just to see it on my face. (Verse 2) The hallways got too tight today, the crowds began to press My system hit a wall under all this hidden stress Internal monitors crashed, my legs gave out from fright They had to carry me away from the survival fight And then you call me "dramatic," say it isn’t a big deal While you fake your own panic just to see what you can steal It’s a cruel emotional game that you’re playing with my head Rolling your eyes at the very tears I shed. (Chorus) And it’s a toxic cycle, hitting play on the track You push me away, then you beg for me back I would have stayed till we were dead and buried in the ground But I was just the heavy weight that you were holding down I wish you were the villain, the psycho with no feelings at all So I'd have a reason to hate you when I fall But you lied to my face three times, and that’s enough of a wall. (Verse 3) If you ever want a spot back, your trust is sitting at zero You’ve got to put the phone down, stop trying to play the hero It’s disrespectful, cold, when your face is in the screen Ignoring the person right in front of you, being completely mean I need someone who’s clingy, who makes a real effect To keep me in their life with a little damn respect Social anxiety is hard, yeah, I know that truth too well But you used it as a weapon to put me through this hell. (Bridge) You think this is a game where you can pause and hit rewind Leave me shaking on the floor while you mess with my mind But my trauma’s wide open, and I’m drawing the line You won’t bully my health for the very last time The adrenaline is crashing, but my vision is clear I am muting the noise, I am conquering the fear. (Guitar Solo / Intensity Building) (Chorus) And it’s a toxic cycle, hitting play on the track You push me away, then you beg for me back I would have stayed till we were dead and buried in the ground But I was just the heavy weight that you were holding down I wish you were the villain, the psycho with no feelings at all So I'd have a reason to hate you when I fall. (Outro) Our love was temporary. I guess I was just one of many to carry. But I’m putting you on mute now. The access is closed. I’m lifting my head up. The replay is broken. And the song is finally over.
