The pressure #2 (Remastered)

This is only way I feel like I let some weight off my shoulders,,,if I don’t ,it seems like I’m trying to move with head full of boulders,,,an only gets worse as I get older,,, ya, ,, yet this does release some of the mental chaos, it’s nothing compared to the time loss, ,,,,, ya yaaaa, people say there’s no worse place than hell,,,, I couldn’t imagine it being much worse than living in this shell,,, my fucking head man, only some of you can understand,,, it won’t let me do shit, go forward,move backwards, nothing, not even a little bit, i call it out,call it a bitch,nope, still not shit,,, no interest,no goals,no ambition….. i dont understand ,when did I go threw the transition, i don’t know,,, cant get away from myself, no were to go,,,,no,,,,, I wanna scream to the top of my lungs, but don’t have energy nor does it help at all, im sure it’s all my fault , that I know for certain,keep it to myself,dont wanna be a burden,I can feel time just turning an my insides burning,,,, guess what I get is what I’m deserving… i don’t know,,, done even have the energy to let go,,,, truly whatever that means,,,,, just fucking stuck it seems, but for fuck sake , to god or satan my life, here just take,,,, I won’t put up a fight, i don’t have it in me,for my ones I love infinity.they’ll never know my intensity.of the depths of love I have for, or how much I truly adore,..im just out of ideas an cant do it by myself anymore…i no it makes me sounds weak.and probably I am… but … god…fuck… shit… damn…. I’ve lost who I am. An don’t know how to come back again.."…… I hate this…. I just don’t know,,,,,, scared to death but to hell I go,,,,,,,,ya yaaaa, ,, ya,,,, never thought stress would lead to death