Yeah... It's that shit again... I wake up sick, stomach twisted in a vicious knot Mind racing faster than the thoughts I wish I never got Mirror shows a ghost, eyes hollow, skin like rotting rot Another day breathing poison, wondering why I'm not Dead already, head is heavy, ready to pop Every second feels like seconds till the final drop Friends faded, betrayed, or maybe I just pushed 'em off Either way I'm solo, rolling solo in this coffin shop I overthink the overthink, sinking deeper in the drink Blink and miss the point, joint lit but I can't even think Sink or swim? I'm drowning quick, the current's got a wicked grip Lip bitten bloody, muddy visions of the life I skipped Pissed at everyone, but mostly pissed at this bitch in the mirror Clearer every year I'm disappearing, turning into nothing clearer Fear the future, past a tumor, present's just a rumor Doom in every room, assume I'm doomed, consumer of the tumor Angst so thick I choke on it, smoke on it, broke on it Heart full of holes, soul corroded, no component Floating in the void, paranoid, annoyed and broken Hoping for the end but scared to death of what I'm hoping Classic angst, man, it's eating me alive Twisted mind, blind, can't find a reason to survive Every night I fight the urge to end it with a dive But I stay, decay, pray the pain will finally subside Clock ticks loud, mocking me, every second screams "you're late" Hate myself for breathing, seething, needing to escape Tape over my mouth, but the voices never hesitate Debate with demons daily, maybe I'm the one they hate Fake smiles in the daylight, night bites harder than a blade Afraid to move, approved to lose, bruised in every shade Made my bed of nails, impaled, exhaling rusty blades Days blur together, whether I live or rot in shades I chase the high just to die a little slower Lower than the gutter, mutter curses at my own shoulder Older but no wiser, miser counting worthless minutes Spit venom at the sky, why try when nothing fucking finishes Diminished, finished before I even fucking started Shattered heart in a garbage cart, discarded and departed Hardened on the surface, nervous underneath the armor Farmer of my own despair, growing fields of trauma What if I'm the problem... What if I'm the poison in the bottle... What if every mirror's just a warning... And I'm too fucking gone to even heed it calling... Back to the spiral, viral thoughts infecting every cell Hell is other people? Nah, hell is knowing me too well Sell my soul for one night where the noise would fucking quell But the deal's already signed in blood I couldn't even spell Yell into the pillow, billow smoke until I can't inhale Fail at every single thing, king of nothing, crown of nails Tales of better days feel like fairy tales from someone else Dwell in darkness, harness sadness, madness on the shelf I built this cage with my own rage, page after page of pain Stained every memory, buried dreams in acid rain Sane? That's a joke, I'm broke, the rope looks like a friend Pretend I'm okay till the mask slips off again Angst so thick I choke on it, smoke on it, broke on it Heart full of holes, soul corroded, no component Floating in the void, paranoid, annoyed and broken Hoping for the end but scared to death of what I'm hoping Classic angst... it's all I fucking know Watch it grow, swallow me whole, nowhere left to go Every breath a test, chest pressed against the glow Of the exit sign I ignore... 'cause I'm too scared to go
