I’m still here

I try to please, I aim to serve But the more I give, the less I deserve I bend and I fold, I twist into knots But the harder I work, the more I get lost I wear a smile, but it’s paper-thin My heart’s on fire, but I keep it within They take and they take, and I let them all in I’m breaking apart, but where do I begin? Chorus I guess I just wasn’t made with a spine Trapped in a cycle that’s wasting my time I want to believe I’m worth something more But I sabotage the steps to the door I give till I’m empty, but who’s left to blame? I’m bitter and tired, but it’s all the same I devalue my worth with each passing day In this self-made trap, I can’t break away Verse 2 I talk myself down, I silence my voice Convince myself that I don’t have a choice I watch as they rise while I stand still A prisoner of my own goodwill I doubt every word, second-guess every thought The more that I try, the more I’m caught In a web of my making, tangled and torn A cycle of self-sabotage, weary and worn Chorus I guess I just wasn’t made with a spine Trapped in a cycle that’s wasting my time I want to believe I’m worth something more But I sabotage the steps to the door I give till I’m empty, but who’s left to blame? I’m bitter and tired, but it’s all the same I devalue my worth with each passing day In this self-made trap, I can’t break away Bridge And the nights get longer, the dreams fade to gray I see the path, but it slips away I want to break free, but I’m too afraid Of who I’ll be if I step from the shade Outro So I stay in this cycle, round and round Digging a hole where my hope is bound I guess I just wasn’t made with a spine But I’m still here, singing these rhymes I’m still here, though the fire’s grown cold In a loop that I can’t seem to hold Maybe one day I’ll learn to be free But until then, it’s just bitter old me