Pressure Cooker

[Verse 1] I'm fine, I'm fine, don't ask again I've got a talent for pretending Smile in the kitchen, slam my door Swear I don't care, then care some more Everybody's picking sides Everybody's got their version I'm standing in the middle like “Cool, guess I'll swallow all the burden” [Ad-lib] Yeah. That's healthy. [snicker] [Pre-Chorus] I've got so much I never say It stacks up higher every day And when I can't get angry out I turn it somewhere else somehow [Chorus] I'm a pressure cooker Tick-tick, don't look too close I'm holding back a thousand things Nobody's supposed to know My family, my friends My heart, my head The words I should've screamed But swallowed instead I'm a pressure cooker One more little crack Everybody asks me what's wrong Like I know how to answer that [Verse 2] Then there's you, and somehow You make everything feel real And that's terrifying when I'm barely sure of what I feel I don't wanna lose you So I overthink every word Turn a “hey, are you okay?” Into a hundred things I heard [Ad-lib] Oh, fantastic. Overthinking again. [clap clap] [Verse 3] And then I look at my own reflection Like we're somehow enemies Trying to control the things I feel When I just want some peace I get angry at my skin Angry at my thoughts Angry that I'm angry Angry that I can't just stop So I hide it underneath A casual “I'm alright” While there's a whole damn hurricane I'm keeping out of sight [Pre-Chorus] I don't wanna be this person I don't wanna lose control I just don't know where to put Everything I never told [Chorus] I'm a pressure cooker Tick-tick, don't look too close I'm holding back a thousand things Nobody's supposed to know My family, my friends My heart, my head The words I should've screamed But swallowed instead I'm a pressure cooker One more little crack Everybody asks me what's wrong Like I know how to answer that [Bridge] Maybe I'm not cruel Maybe I'm just overwhelmed Maybe I've been carrying More than I could ever tell And maybe pushing people away Was never what I meant I just got so scared of breaking That I started breaking everything [Spoken] “What's wrong?” Nothing. Obviously. [Beat drops] [Final Chorus] I'm a pressure cooker Tick-tick, hear me now I've spent so long being quiet I forgot what screaming sounds like My family, my friends My love, my rage Every little thing I buried Still remembers where I placed it I'm a pressure cooker But maybe I can breathe Maybe I don't have to turn All this anger onto me [Ad-libs] Yeah, I said it. Finally. I'm still here. [clap clap] [Outro] I'm angry. I'm hurt. I'm scared. And maybe that's allowed.