Am I the lucky one? The one who got away We grew up together But went our own way I'm sorry I couldn't help you more When you were living on the streets You were gone for years I thought I would never see you again Growing up, we went through all the same things All the different houses All the men Mom brought home Hearing what she did Watching through the keyhole Seeing her get hurt Time after time Living between the bottles Day after day You had to play with my toys Because of what happened to me I was the favorite one You should have gotten everything you wished for Just as I did But I got it out of guilt Now I understand You were never a problem You needed to be loved You needed to be seen But no one did You lost yourself to drugs I never understood But now I do You were just a child too (You were just a child too) I try to imagine what you must have felt like And I think that I feel it too The unbearable Not being able to be alive Wanting to escape your own body Because it hurts everywhere And you just want to numb the pain Now I understand You were never a problem You needed to be loved You needed to be seen But no one did You lost yourself to drugs I never understood But now I do You were just a child too (You were just a child too) I'm sorry that I couldn't do more to help you That I'm the one who got away I'm the lucky one At least that's what I like to believe Even though we grew apart I still love you I think about you every day It didn't have to be this way I'm the lucky one The one who got away At least that's what I used to say But maybe we were both just trying To survive in different ways You will always be my brother Even if I'm not there with you Even if we barely speak I hope somehow you know I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU (I never stopped loving you)
