Morning shift, I take the hours someone else couldn't make Say "sure, I'll take it," and I mean it, every word, no mistake Let the truck merge, wave the cars through, let the woman go ahead Calm as poured concrete, I do exactly what I said Grocery run on the way home, cart's got one wheel stuck Pulls me left, pulls me left, pulls me left— MOVE, you useless piece of steel! Sorry. Long day. Nah, you go first. Keep it level, keep it low Clear the street before I blow Every charge is aimed at me Light it up so quietly Inward collapse I go off, but I go in I blow the floors out under me Rip my own walls down, spare the street I go off, but I go in I fold in so clean, nobody gets hit Back at work, I take the weekend nobody wants "I got it," "I don't mind," I'm the easy one, the constant Zipper on my jacket jams halfway in the rain I pull, it bites, I pull again— TEAR it off, tear it all apart! Breathe. It's cheap. Doesn't matter. Keep walking. Up the stairwell with the bags, the handle stretching thin Halfway up it gives, the glass jar hits the steps and spins— Then SHATTER, all of it, shatter to the ground! My bad, I'm sorry. Have a good night. Keep it level, keep it low Clear the street before I blow Inward collapse I go off, but I go in I gut the stairwell, crack the core Not a single crack next door I go off, but I go in (COME DOWN!) I fold in so clean, nobody looks up Here's the load sheet, every charge, the way it really went Every yes I didn't mean was a hole I drilled in cement Every shift I covered was a charge I packed in tight Every favor ran a wire down to the base, out of sight Every no I swallowed, every grudge I kept for good I was setting the explosives where the pillars stood I drew the pattern, set delays, and cleared the street myself Blaster of record on this job, and there was no one else Inward collapse I go off, but I go in Every charge at once goes off in me Not a window breaks on the street I go off, I go, I go in I fold in so clean, even I can't tell
