[Intro] [sparse piano, faint room ambience, intimate close-mic male vocal, almost spoken] I told myself I'd be alright. I said I'd let you go. [small pause] I lied. [Verse 1] [quiet, conversational, wounded] I feel used, but I'm still missing you Funny how my heart forgets what my head knows is true I keep telling myself that this will finally end Then your name lights up my phone And I'm falling back again I don't know when I lost control When wanting you became needing you I tried to draw a line between us But every time I do I end up back with you [Pre-Chorus] [soft electric guitar enters, restrained emotion] And I know I shouldn't call I know I shouldn't stay But when you get close enough Every reason fades away [Chorus] [aching male vocal, intimate first line, restrained harmonies] I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you I know I should leave But I still want you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you And every time I see you I know I still miss you [Verse 2] [slightly stronger, more exposed] You can make me feel like I'm the only one Then disappear before I know that you've gone I keep pretending I don't care But every empty room Just leaves your shadow there I remember every little thing The way you laugh The way you pull me in I should be trying to forget it But forgetting you Feels worse than remembering [Pre-Chorus] [building tension, subtle harmony] And I know you're not the answer I know this isn't right But when you're standing in front of me I lose the fight again [Chorus] [slightly fuller instrumentation, wider harmonies] I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you I know I should leave But I still want you I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you And every time I see you I know I still miss you [Bridge] [instrumentation nearly disappears, raw close-mic vocal] Maybe I'm addicted to the almost To the way you pull me close Then leave me wanting more Maybe I'm afraid that if I let go There'll be nothing left to hold And I'll have to face That you were never really mine at all [long pause] But I still want you. [Build] [heartbeat-like kick, piano and ambient synth gradually returning] I tried to let you go I tried to hate your name I tried to tell myself I'd never feel this way again But every road Somehow leads home Every silence Sounds like your name [voice starting to break] I don't hate you God, I wish I did It'd be easier Than loving you like this [Final Chorus] [raw, cracked delivery, restrained rather than explosive, aching and unresolved] I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you I know I should leave But I still want you [voice nearly gone] I hate you, I love you I hate that I love you And every time I see you I know I still miss you [bare, almost whispered] I still miss you. [Outro] [instrumentation fades to just piano, then silence, intimate close-mic vocal] I told myself I'd be alright. [small pause] I lied.
