*Verse 1* I woke up wanting sunshine, But there was thunder in my head. I tried to laugh at everything, But somehow cried instead. I told myself, “Be happy,” Like happiness was a choice, But anger started whispering In the corners of my voice. I wanted to feel nothing, Then I wanted to feel it all. I wanted to stand up laughing, Then I wanted just to fall. There's something strange inside me That I can't quite understand— I reach for one emotion And another takes my hand. *Chorus* **I wanna be happy, But I'm angry instead. I wanna be laughing, But there's tears in my head. Then I'm sad, then I'm smiling, Then I'm somewhere between. I'm not quite broken, But I'm not quite clean. I'm half happy, half mad, Half lost, half found. I'm trying to find myself While I'm spinning around. I want to feel one thing, But another breaks through— I'm sad when I'm happy, And I'm happy when I'm blue.** *Verse 2* I can smile in the morning With a storm behind my eyes. I can laugh at a memory While I'm fighting back the cries. Someone asks me, “How you doing?” I say, “Man, I'm doing fine.” But there's a war behind the answer That I can't leave behind. Anger wants an answer. Happiness wants to stay. Sadness keeps reminding me Of everything yesterday. And somewhere in the middle There's a stranger I can see— Maybe all these different pieces Are still a part of me. *Chorus* **I wanna be happy, But I'm angry instead. I wanna be laughing, But there's tears in my head. Then I'm sad, then I'm smiling, Then I'm somewhere between. I'm not quite broken, But I'm not quite clean. I'm half happy, half mad, Half lost, half found. I'm trying to find myself While I'm spinning around. I want to feel one thing, But another breaks through— I'm sad when I'm happy, And I'm happy when I'm blue.** *Bridge* Maybe happiness ain't always laughter. Maybe sadness ain't defeat. Maybe anger is a warning When there's something underneath. Maybe I don't have to choose Which feeling gets to stay. Maybe every color matters When you're painting out your day. So let the anger have its moment. Let the sadness have its song. Let the laughter find a doorway And remind me I belong. *Breakdown* I'm angry because I care. I'm sad because I loved. I'm happy because I'm still here. I'm confused because it's tough. And maybe that's the strange thing— Maybe that's what makes me whole. *Final Chorus* **I wanna be happy, And sometimes I am. Sometimes I get angry And don't know where I stand. Then I'm sad, then I'm smiling, Then I'm somewhere between. Living somewhere in the space Between the red and the green. I'm half happy, half mad, Half lost, half found. Still trying to find myself While I'm spinning around. I don't have to feel one thing, I don't have to choose— Sometimes the heart gets complicated When it's got nothing left to lose. I'm sad when I'm happy, I'm happy when I'm blue. Maybe all these different feelings Are just different parts of me and you.** *Outro* So I'll stop fighting every feeling Like one of them has to win. Maybe happiness and sorrow Were never meant to be enemies. Maybe sometimes… **you have to feel both to know you're living.**
