Halfway Gone

[Intro] You were all rain and no warning Like kissing someone in a storm I wrote your name into the window Now I can’t wipe it off the glass [Verse 1] You smelled like wind and bitter tea And spoke in poems by accident You never stayed but always lingered Like something I was scared to forget [Verse 2] You traced a circle on my hand And said you loved things that don’t last I asked if that included me You smiled and looked into the past [Chorus] I fell for a boy made of the sky With moods that changed like ocean tides He never promised, never stayed But somehow still took my breath away And even now I think I would Fall again if I still could [Verse 3] You danced like time was running out And smiled like you had broken something We never kissed beneath the stars But I still swear you left me wanting [Verse 4] You left a note under my pillow It only said, “sometimes dreams fade” I read it like it meant goodbye In a dream I refused to let go [Verse 5] You wore my hoodie for a week Then left it smelling like your ghost It hangs now on the back of my door Still warm, still yours, still letting go [Verse 6] You told me stars were just pretend Stories people stitched to the night sky But I still wish on every one Like hope’s a thing you taught me [Chorus] I fell for a boy made of air Who disappeared each time I cared He never lied, he never stayed Just drifted slowly far away And even now I think I might Give up calm to feel that high [Verse 7] You said you liked me when I cried Said “pain looks honest on someone kind” I laughed and told you you were weird Then kissed you until our lips were sore [Verse 8] We made up places we could hide Traded hearts like they were toys I broke a rule to let you in You bent the sky and stars to get in [Verse 9] The day you left the world went grey But in that shade, I saw you burn You whispered, “nothing’s ever mine” Then turned and didn’t return [Verse 10] I found your favorite book today The pages worn where you would pause I read the notes you left in ink They felt like something I had lost [Chorus] I fell for a boy who felt like smoke Who held me tight, then let me go He never begged, he never stayed He left like sunset slips away And I still think if time was fair We’d still be dancing somewhere there [Verse 11] You said goodbye like it was nothing Then asked me if I believed in ghosts I said, “only the ones I miss” And watched you vanish into the mist [Verse 12] You held my face like it was rare Said no one’s really built to care But still, you memorized my eyes and face Like you were saying your last goodbye [Verse 13] I see you now in subway lights In strangers’ eyes and Friday nights In old songs playing way too loud And every time I’m lost in the crowd [Verse 14] You had a way of saying things That wrapped around my ribs like vines Not cruel, not kind, just always there Like love that never asks if you care [Chorus] I fell for a boy like a flame He danced too close and blamed the rain He made me feel like I was loud Then left me quiet in the crowd And even now I think I might Still call his name on certain nights [Verse 15] Your voice was velvet soaked in wind It made my softness feel like sin But God, I wanted every word Like falling just to feel pain [Verse 16] We said forever like a dare Then laughed like we already knew I never asked for you to stay But part of me still hoped you would [Verse 17] I say your name into my sleeve The way you used to say goodbye A little sound, a little truth Still stitched into the quiet nights [Verse 18] The flowers bloomed the week you left I pressed one flat against my chest Now every spring it opens slow And asks me if I’ve let you go [Verse 19] You said that nothing ever stays Then lingered in my favorite song I tried to change the melody But it still aches when it plays too long [Verse 20] You haunt like silence fills a room Like a twilight creeping doom And even when I say I’m done You bloom beneath the moon [Chorus] I fell for a boy I still miss A myth I sealed with every kiss He never asked me to believe But made it hard for me to leave And maybe love is meant to ache To show us what wasn't fake [Verse 21] I wrote your name into a tree Then carved it out to set me free But when I traced the marks again I only whispered, “please come back” [Verse 22] So here I am, still halfway gone Still caught between goodbye and hello I hold the air where you once were And call it love, and call it yours [Outro] You never said that you would stay But I stayed anyway And if you asked me now I’d still say "I Love you."