[Verse 1] Trippin’ game wondering why Taking hits and feel no mind Wonder why Feel no high Too much dopamine, for just one guy Too much energy to match that shit to one line I time for a broken a guy Stupid wondering why Shit ain’t hitting Never hitting right Cause that shot hit harder when I was in my bullshit [Verse 2] Lately I’m all ear, steady hearing crickets All I hear ’cause my mind is always distant Sitting here calling distance, beggin’ for a friend A step A way away Maybe death Leave no odds Take every chance Take every god damn safety net Break his phone or break his neck Get that check And lock in getting to checkin’ in Three-day stay for a thirty-month bag Straight to the face [Chorus] Now I’m staring at the ceiling Trying not to think Whole room moving sideways But I barely even blink Everybody got a place I don’t know where I fit Everybody says they know me But they don’t know shit [Verse 3] I been beaten by the days Got forgotten by the names Got so used to feeling nothing That the numbness feels the same Don’t ask me what I’m feeling I don’t know how to explain I just know when it gets quiet I start searching for the pain [Pre-Chorus] No high No low Just somewhere in between Wide awake But I’m barely on the scene If I medicate my own way Who’s gonna tell me what I need? When the only thing I’m chasing Is a minute where I breathe [Bridge] I don’t scream anymore, I just stare when it hurts Let the damage stack up till I forget what I’m worth Every memory rots, but I keep it preserved Like a sick little museum of the shit I deserved [Verse 4] I got ghosts in my thoughts doing laps through my skull Every door that I lock somehow opens it up I can smile through the pressure, I can sleep through the noise [Chorus] Still wondering why Still wondering why Taking hits, feel no mind Shit ain’t hitting right Maybe I ain’t looking for a high Maybe I’m just trying to feel alive [Outro] Maybe I’m just trying to feel alive
