seven years later (raw and depressing lo-fi remix)

[Intro] Seven years later I still say your name Seven years later And I still wish that day had changed [Verse 1] Seven years and I still see the life we never knew Every road I took somehow still circles back to you I wish every day that you never passed away I wish I never lost you on that awful day I was young and I thought love would last forever Now I'm counting every goodbye we've had since we were together And tonight another relationship came undone Five heartbreaks later and I'm asking what I've become [Pre-Chorus] I keep blaming myself For what I couldn't control Like I should've been a hero Like I should've somehow known [Chorus] Seven years later I still wish you were here Five goodbyes later And I'm drowning in the fear Maybe I'm cursed when I fall in love Maybe I'm just scared I've lost enough But tonight when my whole world disappears I'll call somebody I won't face this alone here Seven years later I still wish you were here [Post-Chorus] Still wish you were here Still wish you were here Seven years later I still wish you were here [Verse 2] My fifth breakup hit like another door slammed shut Now every old wound feels like it's opening back up I don't know what I'm doing with the rest of my life I don't have some perfect answer waiting tonight Part of me keeps saying every loss belongs to me That I failed the first person who ever believed in me But I couldn't control what somebody else chose to do And loving you was never something I should blame myself for too [Pre-Chorus] I'm scared of my thoughts I'm scared of tonight So I'm saying it out loud Instead of hiding what's inside [Chorus] Seven years later I still wish you were here Five goodbyes later And I'm drowning in the fear Maybe I'm cursed when I fall in love Maybe I'm just scared I've lost enough But tonight when my whole world disappears I'll call somebody I won't face this alone here Seven years later I still wish you were here [Break] I miss you I miss us I miss who I was Before goodbye became a word I knew too much I want the pain to stop I want some peace tonight So I'm reaching for a hand And staying in the light [Bridge] If you could see me seven years from then Would you tell me I don't have to carry everything? Would you tell me what happened wasn't mine to own? Would you tell me when I'm scared I shouldn't be alone? I can't go backward I can't change that day I can't make every breakup somehow go away But I can tell somebody when the night gets hard And let them sit beside me while I guard this tired heart [Build] One more night One more dawn One more reason to hold on One more call One more friend This isn't where my story ends [Final Chorus] Seven years later I still wish you were here Five goodbyes later But I'm finally being clear I'm not cursed because I've fallen in love I'm just carrying more grief than I've spoken of And tonight when my whole world disappears I'll call somebody I won't face this alone here Seven years later I'll always wish you were here [Final Post-Chorus] Still wish you were here Still wish you were here I'll carry the love But I won't carry all the blame Still wish you were here Still wish you were here Seven years later I still remember your name [Outro] I wish that day had never happened I wish I never lost you And I wish I could've saved you But I know now I couldn't control that moment Tonight I'm going to tell somebody I'm not doing okay I'm staying with them And I'm staying through tonight Seven years later I still love the memory of you [End]