I keep your name like a knife Under my tongue every night I say I’m fine, that’s a lie I’m just afraid of the dark inside You reach for air, I grab your hand Like drowning men who don’t understand I hold you tight, I choke the sweat I call it love, but it feels like theft If I was brave, I’d cut the chain If I was clean, I’d take the blame But I’m a coward dressed as care Clutching your pulse like a prayer If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you’d be happy Maybe I should know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you would miss me But I guess we’ll never know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you breathe (let you breathe) I keep you here so I don’t leave (so I don’t leave) I see the walls when you turn away I hear your silence say, “someday” You wanted open, I gave you chains Now both our hands are soaked in blame I hate myself when you say my name Like I’m the wreck and you’re the flame I taste the truth and spit it out Because alone is what I’m scared about If I was brave, I’d cut the chain If I was sane, I’d take the pain But I’m a coward dressed as care Clutching your heart like I’m still there If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you’d be happy Maybe I should know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you would miss me But I guess we’ll never know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you breathe (let you breathe) I keep you here so I don’t leave (so I don’t leave) I don’t want to be alone That’s the ugly fucking truth So I make a home from your bones And call it love, and call it proof Let you go Let you go Fuck, I know Fuck, I know If I stayed for the right reason I’d tear this place down If I loved you like you deserved I’d be gone by now If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you’d be happy Maybe I should know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you go Maybe you would miss me But I guess we’ll never know If I wasn’t so selfish, I’d let you breathe (let you breathe) I keep you here so I don’t leave (so I don’t leave) If I wasn’t so selfish I’d let you go If I wasn’t so selfish I’d let you go
