[Verse 1] I been sitting with the thought like it owe me a deposit got the people in my phone but I'm hoarding what I got left every name a little weight and the pockets got exhausted so I audit what I'm spending and the balance looking toxic I don't leave I just get quieter until they stop checking stop the texts and stop the questions now the silence is a method I perfected the departure with no luggage and no message and the only thing I left behind is wondering what happened (yeah) got a hundred ways to say "I'm good" and none of em are honest got a gut that pulls the cord before my brain could even process every dinner invitation feel like walking through a checkpoint every "we should link" a debt I know I'm never gonna settle and the guilt compound like interest on a balance I can't manage so I package up the distance and I wrap it like I planned it but I didn't plan it I just did it now the room I'm in got one seat and I fitted call it self-preservation but the self I'm tryna preserve got a shelf life getting shorter every time I lose the nerve every bond I build is borrowed time I'm spending on a curve and the return diminish quicker than the lesson that I learned I don't flinch at being solo that's the muscle I been working I been curling isolation like the reps are what I'm earning and the burn don't even register the numbness is a service keep the perimeter the way I keep the curtains drawn and shut (yeah) so I fade not a fight not a scene just the space where I was sitting and the dent left in the seat [Hook] fade away yeah I fade away ion plan to fade away fade away still I fade away can't explain why I fade away fade away yeah I fade away dey don't see me fade away fade away still I fade away yeah dat's da way it always go yeah [Verse 2] and they notice when the chair been empty for a minute call me up like "yo you good?" and I perform like I'm committed say I'm busy say I'm working say I'm getting to it and the lie so automatic now I'm fluent how I do it (damn) funny how you practice vanishing and get proficient every exit cleaner than the last one with precision no the confrontation that's the part I can't be in I would rather disappear than have to sit and feel the friction they want reasons they want closure they want something they can hold but I gave em all the signs I just wrote em way too small read between the cancelled plans the messages I stalled every rain check was a receipt and I been racking up the fraud I don't hate em I don't blame em that's the part that make it worse every person that I cut was someone decent and it hurts but the wiring in my chest don't match the want inside the words and the body always leave before the mouth could say it first phone face down blinds drawn read the room I'm gone I been gone you just noticing it now took the long way out never made a sound [Hook] fade away yeah I fade away ion plan to fade away fade away still I fade away can't explain why I fade away fade away yeah I fade away whole room empty when I fade away fade away still I fade away yeah dey gon' feel it when I'm gone yeah [Outro] (yeah) I aint mad at nobody I'm just tired of the math
