I Heard Every Word You Sang

“I Heard Every Word You Sang” You say you want me back now
But where was that voice when I stayed awake crying for you
I was quiet in the dark just learning how to breathe without you
And I still don’t know how I did She still loves him but can’t trust him
That’s the truth she never says out loud
Misses the way he used to hold her like forever meant something
But forever changed somehow Don’t sing my name like you ain’t let me go first
Like I wasn’t the one who felt it all break down in reverse
I wanted you to fight sooner
Not show up when the damage already learned my name I heard every word you sang
And baby you don’t know how hard it was not to come back
My heart stood still in places you left on fire
And I kept pretending I was past that She misses him too but had to leave
Because love started feeling like drowning with your eyes closed
And every promise started sounding like a song I couldn’t believe
Still I memorized every note I wanted you to fight sooner
Not love me when I was already halfway gone
Now you’re standing in the echo of what we used to be
Trying to pull me back from moving on And I’m shaking when I say this
Because part of me still reaches when you speak
But I learned how to love myself in the silence you created
Even when it hurts to breathe I hear your pain and it breaks me
Not because I owe it to you
But because I know what it means to lose somebody
And still not know what to do You want me back
But do you want all the damage too
All the nights I learned to survive without your touch
All the tears I stopped hiding from you I’m finally admitting it
I wanted you back too
But wanting you and choosing you
Are two different truths So if you come closer
Don’t come with empty hands and faded apologies
Come with the version of you that stays
Even when love gets hard to believe Because I can’t be your almost
I can’t be your maybe
I already lived in that space too long
And it nearly erased me And still… I hear every word you sang