Want to Get Drunk…

Want to Get Drunk… I want to get drunk And disappear from life, from the world, From the pain in my soul, from my longing, From all the spoken and unspoken words, From the emotions and storms within me. To get drunk… and forget even myself. Maybe I am trying to run away from myself. Maybe I want, at last, to understand What it is that I truly want, To finally know and hear myself. I want to get drunk so I can be honest, First of all with myself. I want to get drunk, To finally make peace with myself. If forgiveness is needed, Then first I must forgive myself. If love is needed, Then let me love myself a little, Let me gently soothe my own “self.” If there must be a battle, Let it be with myself, And afterward let there be peace. Let that reconciliation move me, Bring me to tears… and then calm me again. I want to get drunk, I want to escape From pain, from the world, from myself. And what can I do If I deeply hate drunkards From the very depths of my soul. Silva Gulyan