[Verse 1] There are nights I find me thinking How I kept myself from sinking How I let the time slip by While I said that I was fine I thought I had to come back stronger So I stayed away much longer With something good I had to show So you wouldn’t see how deep it goes [Pre-Chorus] You kept checking, I kept lying While I swore that I was trying Said I only needed time Said that everything was fine [Chorus] The things I missed, the things I lost I never understood the cost You gave me room, you gave me time You only asked if I was fine I thought I had to come back whole Before I ever came back home Before I let you see the cracks I thought you’d never want me back [Verse 2] I was trying to survive I was fighting for my life While I waited for more time Someone lost me from their mind I missed the window, got there late No words can make it feel okay That is my reality That is what they took from me [Pre-Chorus] I can hate them, I can hate me Either way, it doesn’t free me I can scream until I’m sick It won’t give me back one bit [Chorus] The things I missed, the things I lost I never understood the cost You gave me room, you gave me time You only asked if I was fine I thought I had to come back whole Before I ever came back home Before I let you see the cracks I thought you’d never want me back [Bridge] I wanna go home, but not like that Dragging every dead version back I can’t carry them through that door I can’t be who I was before Not theirs—mine Every version left behind Every crack I tried to hide Every part they killed inside I put myself together just enough To make it look like I was tough I hid the worst beneath my skin You checked—I said, “I’m fine” again I don’t know if you’ll forgive me I don’t know if you still see me I just know they took enough They don’t get the rest of us [Final Chorus] The things I missed, the things I lost I know now what they really cost You gave me room, you gave me time And still you ask if I’m alright I thought I had to come back whole Before I ever came back home I still don’t know what I will find I just don’t want to lose more time [Outro] I wanna go home, I wanna try I don’t want more years to pass me by I can’t get back the things I missed I just don’t want to live like this
