[Verse 1] If I'm honest, I still think of you More than I ever meant to do I tell myself it's just the past But some old feelings seem to last I say your name doesn't mean a thing That time has changed what memories bring But every now and then, I find You're still somewhere in the back of my mind [Pre-Chorus] I've gotten good at letting go At saying things I don't quite know But there's one truth I can't outrun No matter how much time has come [Chorus] If I'm honest I still wonder where you are If I'm honest You're still somewhere in my heart I don't need you to come back I don't need to change the past But if you ask me if I cared I'd have to tell you that I did If I'm honest Maybe part of me still does Not enough to hold you Just enough to wonder what it was [Verse 2] If I'm honest, I remember too The little things you used to do The conversations late at night The way you made the ordinary feel right I thought that time would make it clear That everything would disappear But some things don't completely fade They simply learn a different place to stay [Pre-Chorus] I've learned to live with what I know And let the things I can't control Become a chapter, not a scar Something that reminds me who you are [Chorus] If I'm honest I still wonder where you are If I'm honest You're still somewhere in my heart I don't need you to come back I don't need to change the past But if you ask me if I cared I'd have to tell you that I did If I'm honest Maybe part of me still does Not enough to hold you Just enough to wonder what it was [Bridge] Maybe I was scared to say it Maybe you were scared to hear Maybe we were both pretending That the feeling wasn't there And maybe nothing would've changed If I'd told you what was true But at least I'd never wonder What I could have said to you [Final Chorus] If I'm honest I still think about you If I'm honest Some part of me still wonders too Not about forever Not about what might have been Just about the person I became The moment you walked in If I'm honest I don't regret a thing Even if we never found out What those feelings could have been And if someday you ask me Whether you ever mattered... If I'm honest— **You did.** **You still do.** [Outro] If I'm honest... I never really stopped hoping.
