blood and clips

Anthemic rap with syrupy chopped-soul samples, slow Texas bounce, and trunk-rattling 808 sub-bass, Sparse kick-snare pocket, skittering hi-hat triplets, gritty minor-key synth stabs, and wide crowd-chant hooks, Deep, laid-back flow with doubled ad-libs, tape saturation, and plate reverb for a massive Southern street anthem feel

[Verse 1]
I’m here again in the darkness, I guess it is an old friend
The feelings I have aren’t easy to express, it’s my worst nightmare I’m in 
I’ve jumped, I’ve slumped, I’ve broken from the amount of the bend
As well as I know this feeling, it’s worse each time it hits
Like a knife in my gut that bleeds drip for drip
Me standing freshly clipped, judging myself as I slowly drift 
[Chorus]
Adrenaline and anxiety are the only states I have to offer
I don’t know how to talk, so how can I be a mom, a friend, or a daughter?
The way this has gone has been tragic in all the most horrible ways
Still I must go on, because I am the only one that can be the change
Even if I don’t feel entirely okay 
I am not the example of perfection, no not me no way
but I try my best each damn day
Still, I’m often more than most people can explain
Or maybe that’s just a dressed-up way of saying I’m batshit crazy, completely insane
[Verse 2]
It’s not without purpose though, not without a push
Yes, this crazy is mostly hurting with agonizing force
A lot more spunk than gush, and the skunkiest kush
 I had to be able to flip a situation and turn it good
I’ve always felt this way at the end of the day, 
Like I’m the little engine that could 
Because even if someone helps, it’s not there for long, you see
At the end of the day it’s always just me 
[Bridge]
Connection for me always comes wrong
It’s one-sided and never stays
It leaves without telling, it’s the mother of this dark place
It’s what keeps me through my youth, begging for love and love's proof
It’s what keeps me from being what I’m meant to do
So at the end of the day, I am the mother of darkness
It’s like a friend that’s good in thought
Then they show up and you're like, "Oh my god"
[Verse 3]
So here I sit alone, again, but that’s okay, my body is my home
I must reassure myself to get through each minute you let be grown 
Because the pain kept at bay has to be the hardest facade ever known
Especially when my mind thinks it’s you on my phone 
With every ding, dong, and little stupid tone
Reminds me of the distance, the distance you’re dissonance has grown 
[Chorus]
But nobody’s ever cared in reciprocal energy, no, no, no it’s not just you
I think it’s me with the problem but I never for sure knew
I don’t like clingy people and I don’t listen well, so I’m bad at compromising and my rage gets evil but the audacity is so surprising 
Still, it’d be cool if I could feel like I wasn’t the only one in the way, the only one that stays,
I wish they loved me before I lost parts of myself that made me okay
I wish I didn’t have to go away so they knew their mistakes

[Outro]
Before I lost parts of myself
Before I lost parts of myself
Yeah, that made me okay
Before I knew everyone just goes away

Pieces of me lead to me here today 
Left along the path I walked 
Pieces that were no longer of use 
Because when you have to choose to go the other way and shit comes to a halt 
You’ve reached the truth -
And the truth hurts when talked

So no I’m not okay you made my love tough 
But the blame’s not just your way 
I’ve never found love that made me know I was enough
Until I loved the fragments I kept close while I was ripped up

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[Verse 1] I’m here again in the darkness, I guess it is an old friend The feelings I have aren’t easy to express, it’s my worst nightmare I’m in I’ve jumped, I’ve slumped, I’ve broken from the amount of the bend As well as I know this feeling, it’s worse each time it hits Like a knife in my gut that bleeds drip for drip Me standing freshly clipped, judging myself as I slowly drift [Chorus] Adrenaline and anxiety are the only states I have to offer I don’t know how to talk, so how can I be a mom, a friend, or a daughter? The way this has gone has been tragic in all the most horrible ways Still I must go on, because I am the only one that can be the change Even if I don’t feel entirely okay I am not the example of perfection, no not me no way but I try my best each damn day Still, I’m often more than most people can explain Or maybe that’s just a dressed-up way of saying I’m batshit crazy, completely insane [Verse 2] It’s not without purpose though, not without a push Yes, this crazy is mostly hurting with agonizing force A lot more spunk than gush, and the skunkiest kush I had to be able to flip a situation and turn it good I’ve always felt this way at the end of the day, Like I’m the little engine that could Because even if someone helps, it’s not there for long, you see At the end of the day it’s always just me [Bridge] Connection for me always comes wrong It’s one-sided and never stays It leaves without telling, it’s the mother of this dark place It’s what keeps me through my youth, begging for love and love's proof It’s what keeps me from being what I’m meant to do So at the end of the day, I am the mother of darkness It’s like a friend that’s good in thought Then they show up and you're like, "Oh my god" [Verse 3] So here I sit alone, again, but that’s okay, my body is my home I must reassure myself to get through each minute you let be grown Because the pain kept at bay has to be the hardest facade ever known Especially when my mind thinks it’s you on my phone With every ding, dong, and little stupid tone Reminds me of the distance, the distance you’re dissonance has grown [Chorus] But nobody’s ever cared in reciprocal energy, no, no, no it’s not just you I think it’s me with the problem but I never for sure knew I don’t like clingy people and I don’t listen well, so I’m bad at compromising and my rage gets evil but the audacity is so surprising Still, it’d be cool if I could feel like I wasn’t the only one in the way, the only one that stays, I wish they loved me before I lost parts of myself that made me okay I wish I didn’t have to go away so they knew their mistakes [Outro] Before I lost parts of myself Before I lost parts of myself Yeah, that made me okay Before I knew everyone just goes away Pieces of me lead to me here today Left along the path I walked Pieces that were no longer of use Because when you have to choose to go the other way and shit comes to a halt You’ve reached the truth - And the truth hurts when talked So no I’m not okay you made my love tough But the blame’s not just your way I’ve never found love that made me know I was enough Until I loved the fragments I kept close while I was ripped up

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