巷口的煙點著年少輕狂 學不會讀書 只學會怎麼逞強 爸媽的話全當耳邊風 只記得兄弟有難我不能退後 黑夜當被 天光當床 喝酒打架是我那時的崇拜 流過血 卻不曾掉眼淚 只覺得活著就該這麼野 直到那一天 看見媽媽白了頭髮 我才知道 什麼叫做牽掛 爸爸的咳嗽像是在罵 「你到底要漂到哪裡才回家？」 我不是英雄 也沒多偉大 只是不想再讓你們流淚牽掛 如果還有機會改掉我的錯 我想回頭 讓你們放心過 兄弟進去了 有人離開了 我才知道江湖不是想像的快活 賺的錢一場空 換來滿身痛 人生不是戲 不想重來一次 走回老家 門口長滿青苔 屋簷下掛著洗好的舊衣服 沒人責怪我 沒人講一句話 但我知道 他們早就放不下 直到那一晚 我跪下說出對不起 爸只是轉身 把飯菜再熱過 媽眼角的淚 沒落下卻更重 她說「只要回頭，我就不怕心痛」 我不再漂泊 不再想證明什麼 只想每天回家吃飯 聽你們說夢 原來最難的不是生活 是改變念頭 承認自己的過錯 【interlude】 有人笑我轉變太慢 有人說浪子永遠不會安分 可那晚夢裡 母親的倦容 我醒來 才知道她一直在等我 浪子終有家 哪怕走得多遠多累 只要回頭 還能握住誰的手 不想再讓心空著 不想再錯過 你們給的愛 一生都不夠還的多 從今天起 我不再流連街頭 不是誰的小弟 不是誰的打手 我願意這輩子做一個平凡的人 但你們要答應我~別再為我淚流~~ 別再淚流~ 別再淚流~~~~~~~~ [end] The smoke at the alley lit up my reckless youth Never learned to study, only learned to act tough My parents’ words went in one ear and out the other All I remembered was—never back down when a brother’s in trouble The night was my blanket, the dawn was my bed Drinking and fighting—that was what I worshipped then I bled, but never cried a tear Just thought that’s how life should be—wild, without fear Until that day… I saw my mother’s hair turn gray That’s when I first felt what it means to care Dad’s coughs sounded like he was yelling at me "How far do you plan to drift before coming home to stay?" I’m no hero, I’m not great Just don’t want to see you cry for me again If I still have a chance to right my wrongs I want to turn around and give you peace, give you calm Brothers got locked up, some passed away That’s when I realized the underworld ain’t all fun and games The money was empty, left me full of pain Life ain't a drama, and I don’t want a second take I walked back to my old house, moss growing by the gate Under the eaves, old clothes still hung in place No one blamed me, no one said a word But I could tell—they’d never really let go of the hurt That night, I knelt and whispered, “I’m sorry” Dad just turned around and reheated the food quietly Mom’s tears didn’t fall, but they weighed like stone She said, “If you turn back now, I’ll take the pain alone” I don’t drift anymore, not trying to prove a thing Just want to eat dinner at home and hear your dreams Turns out the hardest part isn’t life It’s changing your mind… admitting you were wrong this whole time 【interlude】 Some laugh at how long it took me to change Some say a drifter will never settle or stay But that night, in my dream—Mom’s weary face I woke up… and realized she’s always been waiting at the same place Even a drifter has a home, no matter how far he’s gone As long as he turns around, he’ll still have hands to hold on I don’t want my heart to be hollow, don’t want regrets to grow The love you gave me—I'll never finish paying what I owe From now on, I won’t hang around the streets anymore I’m no one’s little brother, no one’s muscle or war I just want to live a simple life this lifetime through But promise me this… don’t cry for me anymore~ No more tears~ No more tears~~~~~~~~
