the mirror turned cruel

[Intro Hook] I stood in front of the mirror Till the mirror turned cruel [Verse 1] Tracing every flaw like scripture Learning every line by rote Counting all the ways I'm lacking Like a list I never wrote I keep waiting on a softer version Some easier girl to be Maybe then I'd stop feeling Like the room's unfinished thing [Pre-Chorus] You say that I am beautiful Soft, like you're calming a storm But kindness doesn't quiet it When it's lived here for this long [Chorus] Do I have to be somebody else Just to finally feel loved? Do I have to disappear To be worth thinking of? I've been standing in this hallway Asking strangers in the glass If there's a version of me Worth keeping at last Do I have to be somebody else? [Verse 2] I've got pictures of who I wanted Taped up where the mirror used to be And I don't even remember When I stopped just being me I want to know what peace feels like I want to set the whole thing down I'm so tired of the measuring Of never coming out [Pre-Chorus] You say that I am beautiful Soft, like you're calming a storm But kindness doesn't quiet it When it's lived here for this long [Chorus] Do I have to be somebody else Just to finally feel loved? Do I have to disappear To be worth thinking of? I've been standing in this hallway Asking strangers in the glass If there's a version of me Worth keeping at last Do I have to be somebody else? [Bridge] And tonight even my reflection Wouldn't hold my gaze But I'm so tired of hiding From the one who stayed What if the girl I keep on fighting Was never the enemy What if the only one I'm leaving Is the one who's hurting me [Final Chorus] I don't have to be somebody else I was always worth the love I don't have to disappear To be worth thinking of So I'm standing in this hallway Making peace with the glass There's a version of me Gonna make it at last I don't have to be somebody else [Outro] I don't have to be somebody else I don't have to be somebody else I'm learning how to meet my own eyes And finally let them rest